Again heavier sexual harassment which is also
programming in sleep last time.
A lot of talk in my head.

I had after the last post every time asleep stimulation
of abusing sex. Yesterday it was severe. I had longer
time  pain and stress from it. I noticed very strong
programming of gay sex, which will take time to
remove. Arthritis came back is sometimes better
sometimes worse. With my eyes this is the same.
I do no more feel that strong sense of being
kept down of not at all liking to do much. But on
the other side I am not that much up and active.
I am not back on my track just too passive.
I can deprogram mental influence. I can better
notice my own affairs.

Today I feel better than usual. I could go down
the stairs without any unpleasant feelings or
pain, I was not feeling that much down that I did
not want to do much, but scared about what I have
experienced for years. I did not have much talk in
my head nor were there any mind games playing.
Often scenarios get played in my mind and I have
work to stop them. This includes trials to set my
opinions

I have meanwhile some hints that the recent programming into
my sleep has been coming from room 8 beside me.
Two educated Muslims are staying there.
The programming has been done probably with just the mind.
I have to say  that contrary to usual experiences I did not
feel worse rather better than before the programming.
But I think this has also to do with that I had  some hours of good
sleep before I was woken up by this programming.
After the programming I could not go back to sleep for hours.
Manipulation I have still to deprogram.
I do not want to be treated in my back like this.

Ich hatte die letzten Tage wieder Stimulation von
missbraeuchlichem Sex.

Two days ago I had massive stimulation of abusiving sex and how I later noted
a lot of programming in sleep. The following day I was completely down
and did not do much. I did deprogramming today and feel to some
degree better. 

I have a Pons dictionary for android  just recently installed on my tablet.
I just used for looking up words in an article. Afterwards I wanted to have another look on the words in the history. But it was not there. The history feature was not available. I checked several times, I did not find it.
I wrote an email to the developers. Afterwards I went back to the dictionary. The   history feature was there then but as proof that it had not been there before only one word the most recent was listed in the history. I have in the ongoing instance of using the dictionary looked up more than 10 words. I did not close the dictionary for writing an email and I switched to and forth the dictionary app before many times.
I do not know.

I have had harassment during sleep last time. It made my day miserable.
Any radiation was it, it may have been done by humans around.   I ask with this people around to tell me if they notice something

The last days again stimulation of unwanted sex without my consent. Sometimes little but also twice strong.
When it is stronger it gives me considerable stress. I noticed twice in the gesthouse people doing it.

I had all the last days stimulation of abusing sex
in sleep.
Sometimes this brings me in emotional trouble.
First I am stressed and more sensitive to psychic
attacks second I am more vulnerable to such
attacks because I just had such in sleep. Third
I fear more attacks and so sometimes situations
are for me more difficult and this isobviously for others
to notice.

I had stimulation of abusing sex and programming of such
last time asleep.

I had a very stressful time in Malaysia up to now. Some
degree due to my allergies and my not proper dealing
with them. I also note a lot of programming to a gay and
further to like the social democrats. Affection gets
programmed I note there is not so much arguing.
while programming to a gay I have open voices say they
want to have such sex from me.

To democrats, social democrats and similar pestilences
they are a cadre style top down organisation, social but
not human. They want biotechnology, they are not\
really a friend of environmental friendly politics and mostly
don't deal with money properly.
Finally such democrat parties in the different countries work
in line with the mother party in the US for globalisation of their
at least partly miserable politics. If you don't want to be
controlled by the US you have to eliminate democrats in
your country is one step. But other parties may support
US positions over national interests like the CDU in Germany.

I had today severe stimulation of abusing sex.
It gave me a lot of pain and stress
There was heavy programming of such.
What was new is that voices and manipulation
tried to keep me from deprogramming such sex
they tried to justify it
Usually I managed to deprogram such new programming
largely in one day, This time I did not.

I had the last days stimulation of abusing sex in sleep.
It were just people doing  staying at the place where I stay.

I had yesterday severe sexual harassment in sleep. Today I had
harassment again but not that strong.
The first harassment was announced by voices.

I had each night in Had Yai heavy sexual harassment.
this brings me in emotional trouble.
I am exhausted, depressed, withdraw from people
because of the recent stimulation of sexual abuse
which people tend to connect on after such
stimulation.
From such ongoing abuse  I have slipped often in a
burn out with reduced brain processing capacity,
just slower thinking, less concentration less
brain capacity accessible.I am often discouraged
to address problems also because I feel exhausted
and down.

Intense meditation helped me out of such a burn out
back to reasonable brain performance but with the
abuse going on I fall back in an burn out
again and again

Tips are welcomed to help me ahead with this.

I had an account on peacepink.ning.com

It is a forum for victims of mind control technology.

Today I got a message I would have been banned.
I have not been told any reason why this is so I am
sure there is no

Before I had lost my password and tried to recover it.
The service sent an recovery email to my
registered email address but it never arrived.
Also not in the spam folder. I tried this procedure  many times
to get an email to recover my password.
But such an email never arrived.

I then just subscribed with another email address
Now I was just kicked out without informing me.
Miserable behavior.

http://peacepink.ning.com/main/index/banned

I expect them to just reopen the service for me!
I won't creep for that!

It is possible that this service is meanwhile controlled by
perps
 (people who want to keep the mind control victims victims)

I had this already in another  more or less American controlled
mind control groupI got  just kicked out because of little things
 from mainstream idiots.

I had strong stimulation of abusing sex which brought me in  emotional difficulties during the day. I had such stimulation to a much lesser degree mostly the last time. 

My allergies get stronger through this stimulation. I can't even sleep on a clean bed sheet without being troubled by them, which I could until recently.

I had today heavy stimulation of abusing sex.
Voices say it will go on now.
I still feel rather stressed from it.
The environment after such tends to join
such stimulation.

Einen Tag nach demletzten Eintrag hatte ich ueberhaupt keinen Terror

und lebte auf. Ich hatte wieder Lust am Lesen.

Das war am zweiten Tag zu Ende. Auch wenn spuerbare externe

Einfluesse nicht so stark waren hielten sie mich passiv und

interessenlos, wie das die folgenden Tage auch war wie auch die

ganze letzte Zeit. Die Stimulation von erniedrigendem  Sex

findet wieder statt und wird moeglicherweise von Thais unterstuetzt.

Als ich in eimem computershop war bekam ich psychische

Attacken hinsichtlich missbraeuchlichem Sex von einem 

Polizisten.