Voices say I would have severe attacks now.. In two or three days we would see if I can stand them. 

I am four days in Chaiya now. The first three of them I had severe stimulation of abusing sex. Yesterday and today I was sick. Voices said because of this we stop it.
But they say also when you get sick because of this we can destroy you now.
Voices said abuse will restart this night. I do not know how long I can take this.

The last days in Malaysia I had except one norning
with stimulation of abusing sex no harassment.
The days in Thailand there was every night something.
But how much I have to attribute to allergies is not
easy to say.

In the night to the 27th of January I was still awake
at about 3.45 am in the morning.
I noticed something slow moving past my room.
What I thought sow moving? I managed to get
up and open the door without being heard and
looked outside. I saw the young Chinese
woman staying opposite to the right and a Chinese
man who at once they saw me ran in the room of
the Chinese woman. they soon came back outside to
knock at the door of the Indian couple staying opposite.
When the door opened they gave the Indians a bag with
powder of darker colour. Then they went back into the
room of the Chinese woman and stayed there.
I was baffled laid down just laid down and pondered
but also slept a little. After a few hours at the early
morning I went up and outside. I saw a white powder
exactly at the area where I saw the two Chinese first.
I swept up the powder put it in a plastic bag.
I tried to smell it. It had an instant effect on my eyes and
my airways. That on the airways was stronger. I could
not smell it long due to the effect. I thought is it possible
to use such powder to reliably numb a person?
And after that get into the room where they laid out
the powder and steal all belongings? My room has a
old wooden door which I can open from the inside
when it is locked from the outside. It should be possible
with a bit knowledge to open this shaky door from the
outside.
The next important point in this story is that I have been
told that this Chinese woman preys on men
probably preferably tourists and one morning these men
wake up with nothing left.
I spoke to the manager of the hotel about this information
He told me not to speak about this, which probably means he
supports and protects her intentions.
Hasty without thinking enough I went to the police
and reported the whole stoy. I was convincing enough
to make police come to the hotel to question the woman.
I was also questioned and asked about the substance.
I had it in a plastic bag. In it I could not show it.
It was white like the bag. So I turned the bag to make
the substance fall on the floor but there was not much to
show no white on the floor. This was a flop for me.
I should have put the substance in a small transparent container
and take some time to find one before going to the police.
The idea with the plastic bag which even had a hole on it was
negligent
Maybe the substance was volatile, but It has been three hours
on the floor before I got it.
This flop also led to an end that i was probably seen
as paranoid and the woman was left alone.
i think now I should have sought counselling from the police
about what I had discovered and not have asked for action in
the first place.
But good counselling is understandably not that easy available
in a country where English is the second or third language also
for policemen.
.Voices in my head later told me that this substance just could
have been used with the intention to harm me not to numb me,I do not know.

To put me in a better position I repeat the suspicious points
There was this Chinese woman with a Chinese man slow moving
in front of my room. They were not normal moving. this slow
moving made me get up, normal moving is not suspicious for me.
When I opened the door and looked outside they ran away.
the Chinese woman was dressed and with a Chinese man so for
which reason she ran away. Then the white substance on the floor
which effects airways and the eyes quickly when you come close.
Further the woman appears to be known as one which goes after
men with evil intentions.
How the story with the police went was not that good but
suspicion remains that there has been something evil in
the making when I caught the two Chinese outside of my room.

I have voices which say that I would have attacks on a
unprecedented scale now. They would destroy  me now.
Announcements related to attacks are often true to my
experience.

I had stimulation of abusing sex yesterday and today into sleep.
Yesterday it was very  hard.

I had the last days repeatedly stimulation of gay sex which
is stressful for.me.

I had again programming in my sleep in the early morning.
I could no more go to sleep.

I actually needed two days and some hours of meditation
to recover from the stimulation of abusing sex two days
ago
I had last time asleep programming to like abusing sex
which brought me in trouble during the day.

I had most of the last days stimulation of abusing sex
Yesterday it was that strong that I felt the effects the
whole day. Today I noticed programming to a social
democrat and programming of gay sex.
Voices seem to be encouraged to program and harass
as I show more signs of forgetfulness.

I hear voices,have sometimes sexual harassment.
over any radiation.
This sexual harassment may be coming from
psychic attacks.

I had quite some time the last weeks sexual harassment in
sleep. The last days it was less.
Today it was stronger again but along with it
a lot of programming.

k place

The last days stimulation of stressful sex into sleep
took place.

I woke up feeling miserable, depressed Allergies are
one thing, stimulation of abusing sex another to
contribute to this. Feeling miserable and down
continued the whole day.

The day before it was the first day I stayed in Surat

Thani I had no stimulation of abusing sex in the early 

morning, but I was woken up by people being loud

in the early morning.

I assume this was the replacement for the lacking

stimulation of abusing sex harassers could not 

organize in time the first night there.

I have a lot of voices the last time. I assume much it
is MC induced.
I hear I should defend myself against MC finally.
Such or related to such I hear again and again.
It is right I did not manage to do that. Several
times in the past I started writing about it with
a paper in mind to turn to authorities, but  every
time the level of harassment was turned up so I did
no more get ahead and stopped after a while.
But for some time they want me to do such.
I even had programming to sit down and write.
I am not sure if I can resist if they try this hard.
There is programming to a restricted mind 
in line with German social democrats.
This has been heavy and ongoing. It stopped
some minutes ago.
Actually I am not sure if it is programming
or stimulation of material which is already
stored in me. It is not that easy to discern,

The last days there was stimulation of abusing sex in sleep.
but I do not know yet how much is due to allergies.
This morning was programming. The main switch of
electricity was in the past and is now a source of stress
and programming, but it is not so always. It was so
this morning. After I shielded it no stress came from it.
Sometimes there is nothing coming from it.
I had voices for hours today which is very disturbing.

Two days ago I started a post and saved it as a draft.
Yesterday for the first time for a long time I could 
meditate  a lot.
Today it is more difficult to meditate again.
I know doing such a lot would then give me strength bodily and mentally and with it more freedom. I assume keeping me from meditating facilitates control over me and further I assume that Thais in my environment are involved. 
I notice I now listen to voices and I fear I may react to orders and be used in anything.

I had stimulation of abusing sex but not that strong

every time asleep the last time. Allergies play a role

I am not sure how big this role is. At least last night

these could have played a bigger role in stimulation

of such. But I knew about the allergies and could

have protected me to some degree. I did not do that

That may have been due to MC or also feeling weak.

I had this morning strong stimulation of sadistic sex
which brings about emotional trouble for me

I have been in Pattaya for a week now and have had several
 times stimulation of abusing sex.
I noted that especially electricity in Thailand may stimulate
abusing sex.
I am pissed off that I do not have any privacy. I sent an email\
encrypted and a day later I get on things I spoke about emails
from service provider related to such.
I have in my mind the word which is used to name the problem
I spoke about in the email I sent,but which I did not use. The same
word is used in the emails I got in which the two services react on
my problem. I had such before already.
I am hurt by the intrusiveness and rather block the initiatives
they offer.
It is sick to try to help in this way and rather shows a character
weakness. I question the competence of such services.
I would like to have better access to information, but in the process
I do not want to be left out as a human being, which is happening
with Mind control technology now. Such technology is apparently
widely spread and not spoken about much.
At least I know now that I cannot rely on privacy in encrypted emails
which means I have to think twice before I write about my problems
in such emails.





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