I often wanted to write reports about my experiences of MC, but I find myself repeatedly not thinking of it for months even if had planned to write down a lot. I also wanted to do something which may have helped with my MC but I notice that I just could not think of it for months.
I also have longer time had trouble doing meditation to the degree I need it to keep standing and not going down, this trouble is less but still there.
Yesterday I had again stimulation of abusing sex and I notice that I do not recovered from it.
I still have pain.