I was the last time quite passive,  I call it down. But the last days it was heavy.
Yesterday I had a talk in my mind and changes happened in it.
As if a brake was loosened and some other restrictions removed I
got the first day for some time get up after 8 hours in bed, though
sleep was not relaxing, strengthening and refreshing how I knew
it before my harassment began.
Maybe the regular massage helps me up at the moment but
I also suspect that the loosening of brakes indicates an illegal
implantat. Heiner Gehring writes in his book ''Versklavte Gehirne"
that there are implants which enable behavior control.
Voices said that it was too much public again at the moment so
they would retreat and their activities would not go on for a while
(short while?).
But I woke up with stimulation of abusing sex, It was not strong
but it was there.