After the last event I had two days no stimulation of abusing sex.

The second day I still had pain and fear but my mind had 

recovered. I could easily learn English. The next day stimulation

of abusing sex started again and with it my mental performance

went down to a considerable degree. Taking in of information 

only for a short while. I had it already worse when the abuse

was harder. Only little information if at all any entered my mind

processing was low if there was any. So mental work was not

useful  for some time. I am happy that I recover which has not

always been the case.