I am a few days in Thailand now and had every time sexual
harassment. Yesterday it was that strong that I was weak the
whole day. I then do not like much conversation then. This
I had often over many years. After strong harassment I do
not easily get together a smile or like to talk.
So relationships got difficult through this.
I have forgotten items several times the last days one item is
lost.

Forgetfulness is less at the moment possibly due to less
harrasment. But i have often pain in the area where the heart is. Sometimes the left arm is also tense. Only getting upset a little may make pain stronger. Exercises with arms increase pain so I  stopped it until I know  it is safe to do. Sometime ago I noticed that the many humiliations through the harassment are finally burdening my heart. In the last post I wrote that manpulation is less. It is less noticeable. I often cannot think of what I want to do and spend the day with other things. Going back to what I want functions for some time only after that  I am again doing nothing or something else.

      
Since the last post I had no severe harassment.
I had twice stimulation of abusing sex but
these were different and not so devastating yet painful.
That it seems possible to adjust harassment levels
 I noticed repeatedly.
Voices keep me from sleeping. Manipulation  is less
but I can't get easily to old strength. This was
repeatedly the case for longer time that I no more can
 do it.

The last three times asleep I had heavy harassment.
Stimulation of abusing sex as usual.
The first two days it was stressing, the second also
exhausting but today the third day the exhaustion presses
considerably on my activity.
First unlike the days before I innerly resist activity just
would like to relax. When I try to read I repeatedly end
up doing that or find myself busy with my voices. These
are stronger when I have a lot. of stress. My allergy
is stronger now .I feel my body can't take what is
happening. When it goes on this may mean decline.
Over the week I forgot several times things but I
happily retrieved the items later.
One person is a suspect to have done the sexual
harassment. It is the person in room 11.
But I do not know how to finish the harassment.
Voices say harassment will go on. They will finish my
case now. Such sounds pretty American rather idiotically
American but actually I  don't know really.
One thing I could do is to leave the Chinese influence
area may be anywhere to South America.
Chinese have been often enthusiastic about such abuse
and supporting harassment which leaves me no chance.
 I think I am an Mind control victim but I have never
heard of anyone who got out of such.

This post contained several mistakes. I recognized most
of them in the draft corrected them repeatedly but in the draft
the mistakes were repeated after correction.

I had severe stimulation of abusing sex this morning.
Voices announced this yesterday. They say it will
go on.

In nearly all guesthouses where I stay and the owner is Chinese I have
harassment.
I had today other thing go wrong with Chinese
So I think China must be contained.
Russia, Japan the Asian countries maybe India should work together
to contain it
The intellectual drain of smaller countries because some or their best
go to China must be addressed.

I had voices 2 days ago which said the terror would restart. I had
a break of some days. So it happened. Yesterday I had terror and
today that much that I needed hours to get by with it.
I had sexual harassment but this time it was gay stimulation.
Voices say they may want to bring me to a breakdown to deliver
me to psychiatry and then social engineering to the person they like.
Or put me in a home for disabled.
But voices say a lot. I notice a lot of very hard programming to a
democrat.But I know that what I think about what I notice may look
different after I look some time at it. This programming may have
been there before.
They say the want to destroy me it would take only some days now.
On the other hand voices reminded me of programming to a democrat
I had some time ago which I noticed at that time but did not counter
enough at that time.They would accept me being an Anarchist or
or sympathize with Anarchy.

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Koennte es sein das die 'Autoritaeten' sich die besten Zuschauerplaetze
fuer das Spektakel ausgesucht haben?  Na ja, Ich mein ja nur.

Today in the morning I had again stimulation of abusing sex.
There is another point. I looked up information about
Alzheimer's. I found that being not able to concentrate,
not being able to take in information or keep it, not being able
to process information more often are probably signs of
being on the way to Alzheimer's. I had this more often the
last years. The stimulation of abusing sex was one of the
most devastasting for my body and mind. I ascribe the
symptoms largely to this. This stimulation was often
very stressful and burning me out. Another point was
probably  mental influence which held me from
meditation. I could not do it much the last years.
When I started various stuff happened. I got heavy
stimulation of stress or distractions of my mind or quickly
 rerouted to other activities which I was not able to notice
quickly. Such people who did such stimulation  and enjoyed it are
just  pieces of character rubbish.

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They want to play with your brain and saying they are helping?

I state this way to mess about the brain by an implant is about control.

Governments mostly are not interested in healing mental sickness.

They rather want to exploit the weaknesses mental sick people have.

They do not support orthomolecular medicine which offers scientific

evidence of healing mental sickness.

One probable reason is that such medicine just heals it does not

offer much to manipulate and control people as Psychiatry does,

Psychiatry is supported by governments and does not offer healing.

So it is important for people to learn to turn against the

control junkies in governments.

I had no harassment for some days and started to get better

but the last days sexual harassment restarted. The consequence

is that I am down again and again getting more passive.

When you have a history of sexual abuse you experience 

that many people want to repeat the abuse I had it that

also with a therapist in Germany. Not much about humans.

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https://www.rt.com/uk/369453-oliver-stone-snowden-movie/

I am not surveilled but also harassed up to the level to get multiple

sicknesses. Harassment happens over radiation.

I assume now the idea behind this harassment is social engenering.

I notice influence of voices and programming of my mind.

When I speak about such hardly anyone understands the matter

of covert harassment.

Today I woke up and felt a little recovered which also affected the
mind. I do not know when I had such the last time but I was used
to such and stronger recoveries during sleep before my
harassment started 21 years ago.

The last days I have spent much in bed. I am a few hours up now
and want to go to bed again.

I watched a presentation of Shawn Stenenson about sleep.
He said about that the body detoxifies during sleep.  This
would be the main way to detoxify the body.
Recent research would show that the unability to detoxify
the brain would be the major reason why Alzheimer' s develops.
I do not know the exact words Mr Stevenson said. So the
meaning of his words can be a little different in detail but
hardly in the main point.

I am a target of gang stakling and mind control activities for
21 years now.
I am woken up often in the night 3 times.
I have programming in my dreams which is stressful.
I have stimulation of abusing sex which has in the past
often that painful that I could no more go to sleep this night.
I have had with this stimulation of abusing sex over
distance sexual abuse for many years with varIous effects
on my health.

For longer time I am worse organized than before.
Such happened due to the ongoing harassment
The last time I noticed forgetfulness.
Last week for instance I lost my key, my umbrella
and my shoes in a few days. I need time to recognize
people know but not much.

So this forgetfulness may be an indicator of a degenerative
disease whih leads to death after some time

With that the harassment can be considered as tried murder.


I hear voices also such which are not my own.
They say they want to get me to breakdown
Then I could be sent to Germany and there put in a care
facility after being deprived of the right of decision.
I do not want that. So they use this means.

That is just an idea why this harassment is happening.
The whole stuff looks like being German social politics.

My sister is living in a care facility which costs the taxpayer
3500,- Euro a month. If she would have been treated like a
human being she would be able to walk and take care of
of herself This would cost a quarter of a care facility if she
would need state support.
After having harassment for years her body gave up when she
dos the first time in psychiatry. I know it was at that time.
She developped multiple sclerosis and lives in a roll chair now
There have been reports on deaths related to such harassment.

They do not care about the damage they do and you can be sure
 they  do not care what you want.

I had yesterday stimulation of abusing sex .
and I notice programming.
Voices trying to get me to jump to conclusions.
Some voices which I had a long time have
changed.

I wanted to write it already but I did not.
The day after the election I could much
easier be active than the days before.
I refer to my blog entry before this one.

Today I had strong stimulation of abusing
sex. When I got down into the cafe of
the place where I stay two woman contacted
me emotionally this way. Maybe they have
been doing it before as well.

I actually wanted to write something related to the
election in the US but I had 2 bad days now and did
not do much. Some stress may have been from
guests, but some I do no know. I had such often in
the past. Influence was like this that I could not
even think of learning English after I had done it for
years consequently.
Or being able to do some stuff and then for some time
hardly anything.

I had all the last days stimulation of abusing sex into
sleep in the guesthouses where I stay.

I had today again strong stimulation of abusing sex.
I assume somebody of the place where I stay.
But at the moment I have my mind for myself.
That is quiete a lot. I have the hope that I get
back in track in some time.
What is disturbing are voices which are speaking
a lot. Then they are probably trying education.
I want to do it myself but it is already happening.
I got into trouble with somebody who insulted me
repeatedly. I then sat down alone for a while was
thinking but maybe also programmed.
The words I had  in my mind were similar of the
words the staff in the restaurant later said.
So are they trying to educate me here in Malaysia
The point is I do then not think for myself I just
take solutions and land up in a model from the top.
Thinking myself takes longer but solutions can be
more individual.

I had voices the last days. I woke up with abusing sex stimulated
every time. To a good degree it has to do with my allergy.
But probably not always. It is strange when once a complete
sex is stimulated in the same room hardly anything changed.
The influence voices and harassment have is meanwhile strong.
I do not manage to be that decisive and active I used to be also
because there is programming which keeps me away from it.