Ich hatte gestern direkte Stimmulierung von gay sex. Ich hatte den
ganzen Tag Schmerzen.
ganzen Tag Schmerzen.
Saturday, September 03, 2016
Friday, September 02, 2016
Vor TV-Talk von Maybrit IllnerMuslima verweigerte ihm den Handschlag: Jetzt spricht JU-Chef Ziemiak
http://www.focus.de/kultur/kino_tv/nach-verweigerung-des-handschlags-ju-chef-appelliert-an-muslime-sich-den-gepflogenheiten-in-deutschland-anzupassen_id_5890380.html
Vor kurzem hatte ich es das ein Deutscher, der sich sehr schnell als sehr nervig erwiesen hatte und zu dem ich keinen Kontakt mehr wollte auf mich zukommt und mir die Hand reicht. Ich habe ihm keine Hand gegeben Dieser wird darafhin pampig. Dies empfand ich als Unverschaemtheit. Es war aber noch nichtzu Ende. Spaeter kam er nochmal auf mich zu und wollte einen Handschlag. Ich verweigerte, Daraufhin fing er an in der Gemeinschaft ueber mich zu staenkern weil ich ihm den
Handschlag verweigerte. Der Typ war vieleicht ein Gang Stalker. Das ist jemand der bewusst und organisiert Leuten auf den Nerven rumlaeuft.
Auf der anderen Seite ich beziehe mich dabei auf den Artikel den ich oben erwaehnte dieses man
haette sie anspucken sollen ist eine Beleidigung. Wenn ich mitbekomme das jemand der die
"Gruene" Frau Roth als ekelhaft ansieht und dann 3000,' Euro dafuer bezahlen muss koennte dieses
haette sie anspucken sollen auch kostentraechtig sein. Ich ziehe es aber vor das Worte nicht teuer bezahlt werden sollten. Die vielen Regelungen ueberall auch wild pinkeln kostet Geld macht ein Land ein Stueck zum Gefaengnis. Mir gefaellt es zum Beispiel wenn ich in einem asiatischen
Land mit einem Fahrrad falschrum in eine Einbahnstrasse einbiege und Polizeibeamte schauen hin
und dann wieder weg und bleiben bei ihrem Plausch. Uebertiebenes, unnuetzes Regelgefurze kann
einem den Tag verderben.
Auf der anderen Seite ich beziehe mich dabei auf den Artikel den ich oben erwaehnte dieses man
haette sie anspucken sollen ist eine Beleidigung. Wenn ich mitbekomme das jemand der die
"Gruene" Frau Roth als ekelhaft ansieht und dann 3000,' Euro dafuer bezahlen muss koennte dieses
haette sie anspucken sollen auch kostentraechtig sein. Ich ziehe es aber vor das Worte nicht teuer bezahlt werden sollten. Die vielen Regelungen ueberall auch wild pinkeln kostet Geld macht ein Land ein Stueck zum Gefaengnis. Mir gefaellt es zum Beispiel wenn ich in einem asiatischen
Land mit einem Fahrrad falschrum in eine Einbahnstrasse einbiege und Polizeibeamte schauen hin
und dann wieder weg und bleiben bei ihrem Plausch. Uebertiebenes, unnuetzes Regelgefurze kann
einem den Tag verderben.
Monday, August 29, 2016
U.S. Human Rights
Abuse Report
By Cheryl Welsh
January 1998
http://www.mindjustice.org/7.htm
The Problem
A Classified Arms Race Between the Super Powers to Control the Human Mind and Body with Electromagnetic Technologies
Such technology is used on me.
Sunday, August 28, 2016
In Malaysia I managed to write a police report about somestuff I had
there. In Thailand it appears to me it is more difficult to get my mind
directed to do such. I intended to do such but it did not work
Better it did not work again.I had it before. I am looking for a
scapegoat? Maybe a little but not only. It is also real that efforts have
been heavily attacked by MC efforts. I did not defeat that as I did not
defeat some other efforts.
there. In Thailand it appears to me it is more difficult to get my mind
directed to do such. I intended to do such but it did not work
Better it did not work again.I had it before. I am looking for a
scapegoat? Maybe a little but not only. It is also real that efforts have
been heavily attacked by MC efforts. I did not defeat that as I did not
defeat some other efforts.
Thursday, August 25, 2016
This heavy stimulation of abusing sex 2 days ago made me sick. I have
been in bed for much of the last days. Walking up the stairs was up to
this afternoon quite an effort. It had to do with pain, tension and stress.
Going out was an real effort. I was depressed. I feel better since the
afternoon but I do not feel good yet.
Doing things become quick an effort. My mind works slow I am not
able to read some time. I have been down not doing much the last
years. I could not do sports much because of such effects.
Meditation helps me out of such. But the road to well being with
meditation is long and the positive impacts are with new sexual
harassment quickly destroyed.
I think today meditation was blocked by MC.
I have voices saying they are destroying me now.
I do not know what happens if such heavy harassment goes on for
some time. Game over? Ruin? Slavery?
In my blog has a message been deleted. I am sure I was not doing it.
I am under surveillance. Remote monitoring is used or anything
similar. The harassers have my thoughts in near real time.
That means I cannot keep any password safe. They have them and
I cannot do anything. That is possibly why they are able to delete
posts in my blog. That is why they deleted all my contacts in my
google mail.
Remote Neural Monitoring
http://www.learning-mind.com/remote-neural-monitoring-how-they-spy-on-your-thoughts/
been in bed for much of the last days. Walking up the stairs was up to
this afternoon quite an effort. It had to do with pain, tension and stress.
Going out was an real effort. I was depressed. I feel better since the
afternoon but I do not feel good yet.
Doing things become quick an effort. My mind works slow I am not
able to read some time. I have been down not doing much the last
years. I could not do sports much because of such effects.
Meditation helps me out of such. But the road to well being with
meditation is long and the positive impacts are with new sexual
harassment quickly destroyed.
I think today meditation was blocked by MC.
I have voices saying they are destroying me now.
I do not know what happens if such heavy harassment goes on for
some time. Game over? Ruin? Slavery?
In my blog has a message been deleted. I am sure I was not doing it.
I am under surveillance. Remote monitoring is used or anything
similar. The harassers have my thoughts in near real time.
That means I cannot keep any password safe. They have them and
I cannot do anything. That is possibly why they are able to delete
posts in my blog. That is why they deleted all my contacts in my
google mail.
Remote Neural Monitoring
http://www.learning-mind.com/remote-neural-monitoring-how-they-spy-on-your-thoughts/
This heavy stimulation of abusing sex 2 days ago made me sick. I have
been in bed for much of the last days. Walking up the stairs was up to
this afternoon quite an effort. It had to do with pain, tension and stress.
Going out was an real effort. I was depressed. I feel better since the
afternoon but I do not feel good yet.
Doing things become quick an effort. My mind works slow I am not
able to read some time. I have been down not doing much the last
years. I could not do sports much because of such effects.
Meditation helps me out of such. But the road to well being with
meditation is long and the positive impacts are with new sexual
harassment quickly destroyed.
I think today meditation was blocked by MC.
I have voices saying they are destroying me now.
I do not know what happens if such heavy harassment goes on for
some time. Game over? Ruin? Slavery?
In my blog has a message been deleted. I am sure I was not doing it.
I am under surveillance. Remote Viewing is used or anything
similar. The harassers have my thoughts in near real time.
That means I cannot keep any password safe. They have them and
I cannot do anything. That is possibly why they are able to delete
posts in my blog. That is why they deleted all my contacts in my
google mail.
been in bed for much of the last days. Walking up the stairs was up to
this afternoon quite an effort. It had to do with pain, tension and stress.
Going out was an real effort. I was depressed. I feel better since the
afternoon but I do not feel good yet.
Doing things become quick an effort. My mind works slow I am not
able to read some time. I have been down not doing much the last
years. I could not do sports much because of such effects.
Meditation helps me out of such. But the road to well being with
meditation is long and the positive impacts are with new sexual
harassment quickly destroyed.
I think today meditation was blocked by MC.
I have voices saying they are destroying me now.
I do not know what happens if such heavy harassment goes on for
some time. Game over? Ruin? Slavery?
In my blog has a message been deleted. I am sure I was not doing it.
I am under surveillance. Remote Viewing is used or anything
similar. The harassers have my thoughts in near real time.
That means I cannot keep any password safe. They have them and
I cannot do anything. That is possibly why they are able to delete
posts in my blog. That is why they deleted all my contacts in my
google mail.
This heavy stimulation of abusing sex 2 days ago made me sick. I have
been in bed for much of the last days. Walking up the stairs was up to
this afternoon quite an effort. It had to do with pain, tension and stress.
Going out was an real effort. I was depressed. I feel better since the
afternoon but I do not feel good yet.
Doing things become quick an effort. My mind works slow I am not
able to read some time. I have been down not doing much the last years.
I could not do sports much because of such effects.
Meditation helps me out of such. But the road to well being with
meditation is long and the positive impacts are with new sexual
harassment quickly destroyed.
I think today meditation was blocked by MC.
I have voices saying they are destroying me now.
I do not know what happens if such heavy harassment goes on for
some time. Game over? Ruin? Slavery?
In my blog has a message been deleted. I am sure I was not doing it.
I am under surveillance. Remote Viewing is used or anything
similar. The harassers have my thoughts in near real time.
That means I cannot keep any password safe. They have them and
I cannot do anything. That is possibly why they are able to delete
posts in my blog. That is why they deleted all my contacts in my
google mail.
been in bed for much of the last days. Walking up the stairs was up to
this afternoon quite an effort. It had to do with pain, tension and stress.
Going out was an real effort. I was depressed. I feel better since the
afternoon but I do not feel good yet.
Doing things become quick an effort. My mind works slow I am not
able to read some time. I have been down not doing much the last years.
I could not do sports much because of such effects.
Meditation helps me out of such. But the road to well being with
meditation is long and the positive impacts are with new sexual
harassment quickly destroyed.
I think today meditation was blocked by MC.
I have voices saying they are destroying me now.
I do not know what happens if such heavy harassment goes on for
some time. Game over? Ruin? Slavery?
In my blog has a message been deleted. I am sure I was not doing it.
I am under surveillance. Remote Viewing is used or anything
similar. The harassers have my thoughts in near real time.
That means I cannot keep any password safe. They have them and
I cannot do anything. That is possibly why they are able to delete
posts in my blog. That is why they deleted all my contacts in my
google mail.
Wednesday, August 24, 2016
Some posts before I spoke about low concentration because there are
any fears in the back.I wanted to look into them and find that I already
know them. They are related to old traumas from childhood. I do not
really get ahead with them. I have to learn to practice more mindfulness
I have actually some things I can do which I will do now more but
did not do the last time.
I have been to professionals in Germany. In Asia it is not an option
because of the costs.
Several times I had hardly success with experts.Once I shied away
from the treatment. I blamed myself but some years later I found out
that the treatment I refused to participate in makes quite some people
mad. It is just dangerous for people who have the same diagnosis I had
at that time.Once I had the chance to choose the therapist from
5 different ones. Nice thing which was possible then in Germany.
Only one came in question. With two I could not get in any proper
contact, one was old and slow, one tried to put me down from the
first sentence he said. This was the one with the best reputation.
One worked and I had for some time therapy with him. Then he
said during a talk. I cannot work with you. I would rather participate
in a sadistic abuse than help you out. That means I cannot work with
you. further. That was it with this therapist. I did no more restart after
that.
any fears in the back.I wanted to look into them and find that I already
know them. They are related to old traumas from childhood. I do not
really get ahead with them. I have to learn to practice more mindfulness
I have actually some things I can do which I will do now more but
did not do the last time.
I have been to professionals in Germany. In Asia it is not an option
because of the costs.
Several times I had hardly success with experts.Once I shied away
from the treatment. I blamed myself but some years later I found out
that the treatment I refused to participate in makes quite some people
mad. It is just dangerous for people who have the same diagnosis I had
at that time.Once I had the chance to choose the therapist from
5 different ones. Nice thing which was possible then in Germany.
Only one came in question. With two I could not get in any proper
contact, one was old and slow, one tried to put me down from the
first sentence he said. This was the one with the best reputation.
One worked and I had for some time therapy with him. Then he
said during a talk. I cannot work with you. I would rather participate
in a sadistic abuse than help you out. That means I cannot work with
you. further. That was it with this therapist. I did no more restart after
that.
Monday, August 22, 2016
Sunday, August 21, 2016
I had voices today. They said I could do what I wanted now but the
terror could restart later. I had voices that something would be
allowed now which wasn't before. And I really could do what I
wanted. I finally could without problems do some work in my flat.
I have wanted that for long time. Often it just did not work, now
without problems.
They said if I would not try to get rid of us they would press me in their
desired scheme.(Home of disabled) I answered.I will not do that,
I rather kill myself.
When I intended to tidy up my room or clean it I mostly had voices, you
must get rid of us and else. It was also difficult for me to do then
something. I know now there was a lot of control over me the last time.
I was often passive I did not manage to do better. There were also voices
of that they would not stop me in this or that area anymore. It seems
like this. I just can do things easier than the whole last time.
I have to do with fears also because of voices. I am busy with them
internally while doing other things. Concentration is low because of
such. So I have to look at the fears and address them mentally, which I
did not do yet. That should be right to weaken them or not?
Well, I have to define the fears first. When they are in the background
it may be troublesome to get them clear. I will get busy with the latter
first before going ahead further.
terror could restart later. I had voices that something would be
allowed now which wasn't before. And I really could do what I
wanted. I finally could without problems do some work in my flat.
I have wanted that for long time. Often it just did not work, now
without problems.
They said if I would not try to get rid of us they would press me in their
desired scheme.(Home of disabled) I answered.I will not do that,
I rather kill myself.
When I intended to tidy up my room or clean it I mostly had voices, you
must get rid of us and else. It was also difficult for me to do then
something. I know now there was a lot of control over me the last time.
I was often passive I did not manage to do better. There were also voices
of that they would not stop me in this or that area anymore. It seems
like this. I just can do things easier than the whole last time.
I have to do with fears also because of voices. I am busy with them
internally while doing other things. Concentration is low because of
such. So I have to look at the fears and address them mentally, which I
did not do yet. That should be right to weaken them or not?
Well, I have to define the fears first. When they are in the background
it may be troublesome to get them clear. I will get busy with the latter
first before going ahead further.
Saturday, August 20, 2016
Today I did not have stimulation of sexual abuse.
Voices spoke different. They hinted at my mental performance without
having had stimulation of abusive sex and after having had such.
Yesterday I tried to learn some English words, actual repetition.
I struggled with about 20 words for an hour.
I had all days in Chaiya stimulation of unwanted sex.
Some days ago when I arrived at Chaiya the same was a matter of may
be about 10 minutes.
I was feeling well. Stimulation of abusing sex has also been there, but
that weak that I did not feel any impact on my mental state as it usual
in various degrees the case.
After such stimulation I don't like to have contact for some time.
When I have such for some time my energy
goes down and my bodily power goes down.
I get depressed my motivation fades.
Voices also the first time accepted the right do heal yourself to become
an expert of your own problem when you have bigger psychological
problems.
To leave such people a chance they should not treated bad.
Is this a sign of hope for me or just some nice words with once left out
stimulation of bad sex. I hope for the first.
The following excerpt of an article I can relate to my life.
It comes the same day the positive voices come.
I had stimulation of abusive sex and other invasive disrupting
stuff 20 years now.
From this article:
...While the Soviet Union had a long history of perpetrating crimes against humanity that are often hard to compare to any other brutal dictatorship in history due to their devastating outcome, it’s also important to consider that many may have learned from this tragic episode in history. As a result, many now have a better grasp of human nature and voluntary exchange....
For people with bigger psychological problems Psychiatry
exists in the West. There are models which work on
voluntary exchange without violating the rights of such
people by for instance forced or pressed questionable
treatment.
I write about such later.
Voices spoke different. They hinted at my mental performance without
having had stimulation of abusive sex and after having had such.
Yesterday I tried to learn some English words, actual repetition.
I struggled with about 20 words for an hour.
I had all days in Chaiya stimulation of unwanted sex.
Some days ago when I arrived at Chaiya the same was a matter of may
be about 10 minutes.
I was feeling well. Stimulation of abusing sex has also been there, but
that weak that I did not feel any impact on my mental state as it usual
in various degrees the case.
After such stimulation I don't like to have contact for some time.
When I have such for some time my energy
goes down and my bodily power goes down.
I get depressed my motivation fades.
Voices also the first time accepted the right do heal yourself to become
an expert of your own problem when you have bigger psychological
problems.
To leave such people a chance they should not treated bad.
Is this a sign of hope for me or just some nice words with once left out
stimulation of bad sex. I hope for the first.
The following excerpt of an article I can relate to my life.
It comes the same day the positive voices come.
I had stimulation of abusive sex and other invasive disrupting
stuff 20 years now.
Former Soviet Leader Gorbachev Has A
Message The World Needs To Hear
http://www.zerohedge.com/news/2016-08-20/former-soviet-leader-gorbachev-has-message-world-needs-hearFrom this article:
...While the Soviet Union had a long history of perpetrating crimes against humanity that are often hard to compare to any other brutal dictatorship in history due to their devastating outcome, it’s also important to consider that many may have learned from this tragic episode in history. As a result, many now have a better grasp of human nature and voluntary exchange....
For people with bigger psychological problems Psychiatry
exists in the West. There are models which work on
voluntary exchange without violating the rights of such
people by for instance forced or pressed questionable
treatment.
I write about such later.
Wednesday, August 17, 2016
I had today again heavy stimulation of abusing sex.
Voices said such would stop today because I would
withdraw from people when such happens.
We will see how much truth is in what the voices say.
Sometimes it is right what they say sometimes not.
But voices say terror would go on just different
no sexual harassment.
I feel depressed because of these stimulation which are
also bodily quite stressful. It includes this time also
programming to a gay.
Voices said such would stop today because I would
withdraw from people when such happens.
We will see how much truth is in what the voices say.
Sometimes it is right what they say sometimes not.
But voices say terror would go on just different
no sexual harassment.
I feel depressed because of these stimulation which are
also bodily quite stressful. It includes this time also
programming to a gay.
Tuesday, August 16, 2016
Monday, August 15, 2016
Thursday, August 11, 2016
Monday, June 27, 2016
Saturday, June 18, 2016
I had the last time often stimulation of abusing sex
but this has also to do with my allergies.
This stimulation comes from some of the Thais
in the guesthouse. Disgusting!
My arthritis went some days that far that I
started to have stiffness issues. But it subsided
I had for some time to use the handrail to get up
the stairs I now can normally walk up the stairs
again. I feel depressed and do not much.
Programming and harassment had attacked structures
of mine how I eat and organize. Some things I did
I just cannot do anymore or not at the moment.
There is some programming related to behavior change.
but this has also to do with my allergies.
This stimulation comes from some of the Thais
in the guesthouse. Disgusting!
My arthritis went some days that far that I
started to have stiffness issues. But it subsided
I had for some time to use the handrail to get up
the stairs I now can normally walk up the stairs
again. I feel depressed and do not much.
Programming and harassment had attacked structures
of mine how I eat and organize. Some things I did
I just cannot do anymore or not at the moment.
There is some programming related to behavior change.
Tuesday, June 07, 2016
Sunday, June 05, 2016
Yesterday voices announced that I should do something against
them. I did not so they would change me to their likes.
I had today programming to love western medicine. With my
little knowledge I think it is a wrong way for a medicine and
cannot be accepted as a medicine of mankind though you
may need to use it. Though I had enough sleep I am exhausted
because of the programming. Meanwhile I am more
susceptible for influence because I am weaker now than some
years ago
them. I did not so they would change me to their likes.
I had today programming to love western medicine. With my
little knowledge I think it is a wrong way for a medicine and
cannot be accepted as a medicine of mankind though you
may need to use it. Though I had enough sleep I am exhausted
because of the programming. Meanwhile I am more
susceptible for influence because I am weaker now than some
years ago
Saturday, May 28, 2016
After the last post some of the manipulation stopped. I could
no more easily lay on the bed and sleep. I started to feel more alive.
I had for some days strong arthritis symptoms but they are much
less now. I do not know why they came and subsided.
I thought I could develop more strength now but today I feel to some
degree stronger than before.
I had strong stimulation of abusing sex but I did not feel
that weak like I often felt before. I was passive, now I must relearn
how to use my time and am still passive. I am to some degree
different also due to manipulation. I did not fit in the complete
idiots mindset (mainstream). So they force you to fit in. I will try
to get back to where I was but also try learning. This was also
difficult the last time. I just too often forgot what I wanted to
learn or did not proceed.
I had several times stimulation of abusing sex
I had most days in the mornings talks in my mind. Just an ongoing
speaking voice which I thought is not my own.
I had also a talk about the troops deployment in eastern Europe.
"In a few years Europe and America could no more fight Russia
or Asia because they are getting stronger" I heard, " we can
beat them now experts think that our weapons are superior, so
we should go now. We believe Russia will give in. If it sends
its nuclear warheads towards Western Europe the West will answer.
Russia has as a main center only Moscow while the West has many.
Russia knows this..." I answered to this that I would not like
the West to control the world.
I am not sure where this is from. I have to observe such more closely.
It may be from me, from a part of mine I have not yet integrated.
That does not mean that I think there is no Mind Control used on me.
no more easily lay on the bed and sleep. I started to feel more alive.
I had for some days strong arthritis symptoms but they are much
less now. I do not know why they came and subsided.
I thought I could develop more strength now but today I feel to some
degree stronger than before.
I had strong stimulation of abusing sex but I did not feel
that weak like I often felt before. I was passive, now I must relearn
how to use my time and am still passive. I am to some degree
different also due to manipulation. I did not fit in the complete
idiots mindset (mainstream). So they force you to fit in. I will try
to get back to where I was but also try learning. This was also
difficult the last time. I just too often forgot what I wanted to
learn or did not proceed.
I had several times stimulation of abusing sex
I had most days in the mornings talks in my mind. Just an ongoing
speaking voice which I thought is not my own.
I had also a talk about the troops deployment in eastern Europe.
"In a few years Europe and America could no more fight Russia
or Asia because they are getting stronger" I heard, " we can
beat them now experts think that our weapons are superior, so
we should go now. We believe Russia will give in. If it sends
its nuclear warheads towards Western Europe the West will answer.
Russia has as a main center only Moscow while the West has many.
Russia knows this..." I answered to this that I would not like
the West to control the world.
I am not sure where this is from. I have to observe such more closely.
It may be from me, from a part of mine I have not yet integrated.
That does not mean that I think there is no Mind Control used on me.
Monday, May 16, 2016
The last nights ongoing sexual harassment in sleep.
Now I notice this time sexual harassment is used for programming. It is used to change my inner direction. I have been passive because it is also
programming, I think. And now over sexual harassment I feel it they are
programming me to be more active. This I notice for days now. But in this programming is a direction included, which is not the one I want to go, how I want to be. Manipulation has been more successful with me than programming of affection.
Again and again I wanted to sit down and write for a police report about
this stuff. Again and again I notice some time later I did not do it.
This is an important example where it is difficult for me to can beat manipulation.
Is it possible to use tabletts or smartphones for programming when they
are switched on. If yes, with wifi on or wifi off.
Now I notice this time sexual harassment is used for programming. It is used to change my inner direction. I have been passive because it is also
programming, I think. And now over sexual harassment I feel it they are
programming me to be more active. This I notice for days now. But in this programming is a direction included, which is not the one I want to go, how I want to be. Manipulation has been more successful with me than programming of affection.
Again and again I wanted to sit down and write for a police report about
this stuff. Again and again I notice some time later I did not do it.
This is an important example where it is difficult for me to can beat manipulation.
Is it possible to use tabletts or smartphones for programming when they
are switched on. If yes, with wifi on or wifi off.
Thursday, May 12, 2016
Monday, April 25, 2016
Friday, April 22, 2016
Remote Neural Monitoring (Satellite Harassment/Terrorism)Reality and Awareness
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-QlzTAS0h8s
There is technology which can read your mind they which can
speak to your mind which can be used to harass you using
radiation.
That is happening to me. And for sure information from my
brain is used by people in the US, in Germany, in Thailand
Malaysia and other countries without my knowledge and consent.
They just use the information know or participate in
harassment in the destruction of my life keep silent and use the
information from me to their advantage.
I have had mind monitoring for all the years, no privacy
Manipulation. I was not able to lead the life I wanted.
I was most of the time down due to the harassment and relation
ships less possible.
I had manipulation which stopped me from Learning English.
There were even times when I could not think of it.
Before I was doing it on a daily basis.
Intense long time harassment and manipulation led to thinking
mistakes making me much weaker than I was before.
Manipulation also kept me down. I was long time not able
to do intense meditation. I did not manage what I was used to do
before.
I have had 20 years many if not most days stimulation of abusing
sex, 20 years mostly painful stressful stimulation of such sex
and you bastards keep quiet and enjoy or use the information you
get.
Fuck you bastards! Just Fuck you! No, I do not keep proper form now!
To my estimation government may be or may have been included
in doing such crimes.
They probably will be able to shift guilt to other groups.
It was my personal weakness that I did not keep up with the
development in this area, This stuff is lets say public
for some time.
Wednesday, April 20, 2016
Saturday, April 16, 2016
Yesterday I had very hard stimulation of abusing sex.
Today it was messed with my head. I do not know how to explain it.
It was quite deptessing.
I do not do much. I have to get out of the depressed state first to be
able to do again. But I could not do longtime meditation for years now.
I will try, maybe I can now.
Today it was messed with my head. I do not know how to explain it.
It was quite deptessing.
I do not do much. I have to get out of the depressed state first to be
able to do again. But I could not do longtime meditation for years now.
I will try, maybe I can now.
Monday, April 11, 2016
I had again severe sexual harassment into sleep today.
I was exhausted for several hours.
Such stimulation is a form of contact. Unwanted contact.
yet contact which other may feel and then try the same
route.
I notice that there is quite some manipulation related to people I
have to do with.
My personal environment seems ro be controlled. This is a
condition something could happen to me and what happens then
is planned for any purpose.
I was exhausted for several hours.
Such stimulation is a form of contact. Unwanted contact.
yet contact which other may feel and then try the same
route.
I notice that there is quite some manipulation related to people I
have to do with.
My personal environment seems ro be controlled. This is a
condition something could happen to me and what happens then
is planned for any purpose.
Sunday, April 10, 2016
I visited today the first time for long again a anarchist
website. This was accompanied by voices: "You can
do that now again." They may even have triggered my
visit by putting the idea in my brain. There was a lot of
control over me for a long time I think. I could not do
much even if I tried to. Maybe it also had to do with
some problems of mine. But I haven't been that
passive for a longer time also not for
shorter periods for I think more than 25 years.
The influence I have by mind control technology and
gang stalking has over years systematically attacked
parts of my personality. I understood that there can
be also positive value in the attacks and worked with them
but come to neglect my ideas of me. I changed inside
and this is at least also a part why I became passive. I am
stuck in some not worked out part of mine which I
better circumvent and sometimes turn to to work on it.
Well on the other side the last days some things go
a little better than before.
I could not meditate a lot for a long time. With such I got
me out of burnouts, that is feeling tired, listless, weak
without having done much. The stress of mind control
and gang stalking brings about quickly such a burnout.
I assume that manipulation was it which kept me
from doing meditation,
Once I managed to build up such strong shielding
that I could block sexual harassment.
Shortly afterwards I had thoughts in my brain
I do not want to set up the shielding everyday.
This is a lot of work. I stopped.
But before I was able to shield the harassment I put
a lot of effort over a long time to achieve a means
to block the terror.
Maybe it has also to do with manipulation.
That I have not written any police report has to do
with voices which are able to get me away from
it. They are quiete troubling.
But I have not done all I could against such
stuff, I admit.
Often I plan to write and I forget.
It is my being in a burnout or also manipulation?
Once I tried to stay at a place just to write
something for the police. I had that much
trouble at that place that I left.
website. This was accompanied by voices: "You can
do that now again." They may even have triggered my
visit by putting the idea in my brain. There was a lot of
control over me for a long time I think. I could not do
much even if I tried to. Maybe it also had to do with
some problems of mine. But I haven't been that
passive for a longer time also not for
shorter periods for I think more than 25 years.
The influence I have by mind control technology and
gang stalking has over years systematically attacked
parts of my personality. I understood that there can
be also positive value in the attacks and worked with them
but come to neglect my ideas of me. I changed inside
and this is at least also a part why I became passive. I am
stuck in some not worked out part of mine which I
better circumvent and sometimes turn to to work on it.
Well on the other side the last days some things go
a little better than before.
I could not meditate a lot for a long time. With such I got
me out of burnouts, that is feeling tired, listless, weak
without having done much. The stress of mind control
and gang stalking brings about quickly such a burnout.
I assume that manipulation was it which kept me
from doing meditation,
Once I managed to build up such strong shielding
that I could block sexual harassment.
Shortly afterwards I had thoughts in my brain
I do not want to set up the shielding everyday.
This is a lot of work. I stopped.
But before I was able to shield the harassment I put
a lot of effort over a long time to achieve a means
to block the terror.
Maybe it has also to do with manipulation.
That I have not written any police report has to do
with voices which are able to get me away from
it. They are quiete troubling.
But I have not done all I could against such
stuff, I admit.
Often I plan to write and I forget.
It is my being in a burnout or also manipulation?
Once I tried to stay at a place just to write
something for the police. I had that much
trouble at that place that I left.
Saturday, April 09, 2016
Thursday, March 31, 2016
Thursday, March 24, 2016
Some time ago I stopped reading the German "Spiegel and "Focus"
onlne news for lack of quality in journalism and also propaganda
against Russia.
I notice brainwashing. I read again this newspapers.
It is done by producing emotional change. There are now
positive feelings related to the papers. The judgement
does not play a role
A similar pattern is used to program me to a gay.
Now rejection is programmed against the online news from
www.russia-insider.com.
I do up to now not yet really manage this programming.
Stimulation of sadistic sex is happening. Once I noticed
radiation related to such from a electricity counter outside
the room. But strangely it stopped after a short while.
I do not know how this works.
I think I just slip into this of imaging of this sex. But twice
I noticed influence from outside. But I know I am stil
l related to such sex also with positive feelings, which not
necessarily are from me rather from the person who did it
in the first place.All this makes the matter strange
and difficult.
The eveldoers in my case have managed to make me weak
and so more susceptible for programming.
onlne news for lack of quality in journalism and also propaganda
against Russia.
I notice brainwashing. I read again this newspapers.
It is done by producing emotional change. There are now
positive feelings related to the papers. The judgement
does not play a role
A similar pattern is used to program me to a gay.
Now rejection is programmed against the online news from
www.russia-insider.com.
I do up to now not yet really manage this programming.
Stimulation of sadistic sex is happening. Once I noticed
radiation related to such from a electricity counter outside
the room. But strangely it stopped after a short while.
I do not know how this works.
I think I just slip into this of imaging of this sex. But twice
I noticed influence from outside. But I know I am stil
l related to such sex also with positive feelings, which not
necessarily are from me rather from the person who did it
in the first place.All this makes the matter strange
and difficult.
The eveldoers in my case have managed to make me weak
and so more susceptible for programming.
Friday, March 18, 2016
After the last event I had two days no stimulation of abusing sex.
The second day I still had pain and fear but my mind had
recovered. I could easily learn English. The next day stimulation
of abusing sex started again and with it my mental performance
went down to a considerable degree. Taking in of information
only for a short while. I had it already worse when the abuse
was harder. Only little information if at all any entered my mind
processing was low if there was any. So mental work was not
useful for some time. I am happy that I recover which has not
always been the case.
Sunday, March 13, 2016
Gestern nachmittag hatte ich ploetzlich
Stimulierung von missbraeuchlichem
Sex. Ich bemerkte nach einiger Zeit
die Richtung von wo es kam. Ich schaute
in die Richtung und sah einen Mann auf
ein Motorbike zugehen und wegfahren.
Von dem Ereignis mit dem was dazu gehoert
habe ich bis jetzt Schmerzen.
Ich habe Stimmen die sagen, das ich
sadistischen Sexakzeptieren soll und das
der Stress zunehmen wuerde.
Stimulierung von missbraeuchlichem
Sex. Ich bemerkte nach einiger Zeit
die Richtung von wo es kam. Ich schaute
in die Richtung und sah einen Mann auf
ein Motorbike zugehen und wegfahren.
Von dem Ereignis mit dem was dazu gehoert
habe ich bis jetzt Schmerzen.
Ich habe Stimmen die sagen, das ich
sadistischen Sexakzeptieren soll und das
der Stress zunehmen wuerde.
Friday, March 11, 2016
Wednesday, February 17, 2016
Tuesday, February 16, 2016
I am four days in Chaiya now. The first three of them I had severe stimulation of abusing sex. Yesterday and today I was sick. Voices said because of this we stop it.
But they say also when you get sick because of this we can destroy you now.
Voices said abuse will restart this night. I do not know how long I can take this.
But they say also when you get sick because of this we can destroy you now.
Voices said abuse will restart this night. I do not know how long I can take this.
Sunday, February 07, 2016
Thursday, January 28, 2016
In the night to the 27th of January I was still awake
at about 3.45 am in the morning.
I noticed something slow moving past my room.
What I thought sow moving? I managed to get
up and open the door without being heard and
looked outside. I saw the young Chinese
woman staying opposite to the right and a Chinese
man who at once they saw me ran in the room of
the Chinese woman. they soon came back outside to
knock at the door of the Indian couple staying opposite.
When the door opened they gave the Indians a bag with
powder of darker colour. Then they went back into the
room of the Chinese woman and stayed there.
I was baffled laid down just laid down and pondered
but also slept a little. After a few hours at the early
morning I went up and outside. I saw a white powder
exactly at the area where I saw the two Chinese first.
I swept up the powder put it in a plastic bag.
I tried to smell it. It had an instant effect on my eyes and
my airways. That on the airways was stronger. I could
not smell it long due to the effect. I thought is it possible
to use such powder to reliably numb a person?
And after that get into the room where they laid out
the powder and steal all belongings? My room has a
old wooden door which I can open from the inside
when it is locked from the outside. It should be possible
with a bit knowledge to open this shaky door from the
outside.
The next important point in this story is that I have been
told that this Chinese woman preys on men
probably preferably tourists and one morning these men
wake up with nothing left.
I spoke to the manager of the hotel about this information
He told me not to speak about this, which probably means he
supports and protects her intentions.
Hasty without thinking enough I went to the police
and reported the whole stoy. I was convincing enough
to make police come to the hotel to question the woman.
I was also questioned and asked about the substance.
I had it in a plastic bag. In it I could not show it.
It was white like the bag. So I turned the bag to make
the substance fall on the floor but there was not much to
show no white on the floor. This was a flop for me.
I should have put the substance in a small transparent container
and take some time to find one before going to the police.
The idea with the plastic bag which even had a hole on it was
negligent
Maybe the substance was volatile, but It has been three hours
on the floor before I got it.
This flop also led to an end that i was probably seen
as paranoid and the woman was left alone.
i think now I should have sought counselling from the police
about what I had discovered and not have asked for action in
the first place.
But good counselling is understandably not that easy available
in a country where English is the second or third language also
for policemen.
.Voices in my head later told me that this substance just could
have been used with the intention to harm me not to numb me,I do not know.
To put me in a better position I repeat the suspicious points
There was this Chinese woman with a Chinese man slow moving
in front of my room. They were not normal moving. this slow
moving made me get up, normal moving is not suspicious for me.
When I opened the door and looked outside they ran away.
the Chinese woman was dressed and with a Chinese man so for
which reason she ran away. Then the white substance on the floor
which effects airways and the eyes quickly when you come close.
Further the woman appears to be known as one which goes after
men with evil intentions.
How the story with the police went was not that good but
suspicion remains that there has been something evil in
the making when I caught the two Chinese outside of my room.
at about 3.45 am in the morning.
I noticed something slow moving past my room.
What I thought sow moving? I managed to get
up and open the door without being heard and
looked outside. I saw the young Chinese
woman staying opposite to the right and a Chinese
man who at once they saw me ran in the room of
the Chinese woman. they soon came back outside to
knock at the door of the Indian couple staying opposite.
When the door opened they gave the Indians a bag with
powder of darker colour. Then they went back into the
room of the Chinese woman and stayed there.
I was baffled laid down just laid down and pondered
but also slept a little. After a few hours at the early
morning I went up and outside. I saw a white powder
exactly at the area where I saw the two Chinese first.
I swept up the powder put it in a plastic bag.
I tried to smell it. It had an instant effect on my eyes and
my airways. That on the airways was stronger. I could
not smell it long due to the effect. I thought is it possible
to use such powder to reliably numb a person?
And after that get into the room where they laid out
the powder and steal all belongings? My room has a
old wooden door which I can open from the inside
when it is locked from the outside. It should be possible
with a bit knowledge to open this shaky door from the
outside.
The next important point in this story is that I have been
told that this Chinese woman preys on men
probably preferably tourists and one morning these men
wake up with nothing left.
I spoke to the manager of the hotel about this information
He told me not to speak about this, which probably means he
supports and protects her intentions.
Hasty without thinking enough I went to the police
and reported the whole stoy. I was convincing enough
to make police come to the hotel to question the woman.
I was also questioned and asked about the substance.
I had it in a plastic bag. In it I could not show it.
It was white like the bag. So I turned the bag to make
the substance fall on the floor but there was not much to
show no white on the floor. This was a flop for me.
I should have put the substance in a small transparent container
and take some time to find one before going to the police.
The idea with the plastic bag which even had a hole on it was
negligent
Maybe the substance was volatile, but It has been three hours
on the floor before I got it.
This flop also led to an end that i was probably seen
as paranoid and the woman was left alone.
i think now I should have sought counselling from the police
about what I had discovered and not have asked for action in
the first place.
But good counselling is understandably not that easy available
in a country where English is the second or third language also
for policemen.
.Voices in my head later told me that this substance just could
have been used with the intention to harm me not to numb me,I do not know.
To put me in a better position I repeat the suspicious points
There was this Chinese woman with a Chinese man slow moving
in front of my room. They were not normal moving. this slow
moving made me get up, normal moving is not suspicious for me.
When I opened the door and looked outside they ran away.
the Chinese woman was dressed and with a Chinese man so for
which reason she ran away. Then the white substance on the floor
which effects airways and the eyes quickly when you come close.
Further the woman appears to be known as one which goes after
men with evil intentions.
How the story with the police went was not that good but
suspicion remains that there has been something evil in
the making when I caught the two Chinese outside of my room.
Tuesday, January 19, 2016
Wednesday, January 06, 2016
Friday, January 01, 2016
Wednesday, December 23, 2015
Tuesday, December 22, 2015
Sunday, December 20, 2015
Monday, December 07, 2015
Tuesday, December 01, 2015
Thursday, November 12, 2015
Sunday, November 01, 2015
I woke up feeling miserable, depressed Allergies are
one thing, stimulation of abusing sex another to
contribute to this. Feeling miserable and down
continued the whole day.
one thing, stimulation of abusing sex another to
contribute to this. Feeling miserable and down
continued the whole day.
The day before it was the first day I stayed in Surat
Thani I had no stimulation of abusing sex in the early
morning, but I was woken up by people being loud
in the early morning.
I assume this was the replacement for the lacking
stimulation of abusing sex harassers could not
organize in time the first night there.
Wednesday, October 28, 2015
I have a lot of voices the last time. I assume much it
is MC induced.
I hear I should defend myself against MC finally.
Such or related to such I hear again and again.
It is right I did not manage to do that. Several
times in the past I started writing about it with
a paper in mind to turn to authorities, but every
time the level of harassment was turned up so I did
no more get ahead and stopped after a while.
But for some time they want me to do such.
I even had programming to sit down and write.
I am not sure if I can resist if they try this hard.
There is programming to a restricted mind
in line with German social democrats.
This has been heavy and ongoing. It stopped
some minutes ago.
Actually I am not sure if it is programming
or stimulation of material which is already
stored in me. It is not that easy to discern,
is MC induced.
I hear I should defend myself against MC finally.
Such or related to such I hear again and again.
It is right I did not manage to do that. Several
times in the past I started writing about it with
a paper in mind to turn to authorities, but every
time the level of harassment was turned up so I did
no more get ahead and stopped after a while.
But for some time they want me to do such.
I even had programming to sit down and write.
I am not sure if I can resist if they try this hard.
There is programming to a restricted mind
in line with German social democrats.
This has been heavy and ongoing. It stopped
some minutes ago.
Actually I am not sure if it is programming
or stimulation of material which is already
stored in me. It is not that easy to discern,
Tuesday, October 27, 2015
The last days there was stimulation of abusing sex in sleep.
but I do not know yet how much is due to allergies.
This morning was programming. The main switch of
electricity was in the past and is now a source of stress
and programming, but it is not so always. It was so
this morning. After I shielded it no stress came from it.
Sometimes there is nothing coming from it.
I had voices for hours today which is very disturbing.
but I do not know yet how much is due to allergies.
This morning was programming. The main switch of
electricity was in the past and is now a source of stress
and programming, but it is not so always. It was so
this morning. After I shielded it no stress came from it.
Sometimes there is nothing coming from it.
I had voices for hours today which is very disturbing.
Sunday, October 25, 2015
Two days ago I started a post and saved it as a draft.
Yesterday for the first time for a long time I could
meditate a lot.
Today it is more difficult to meditate again.
I know doing such a lot would then give me strength bodily and mentally and with it more freedom. I assume keeping me from meditating facilitates control over me and further I assume that Thais in my environment are involved.
I notice I now listen to voices and I fear I may react to orders and be used in anything.
Yesterday for the first time for a long time I could
meditate a lot.
Today it is more difficult to meditate again.
I know doing such a lot would then give me strength bodily and mentally and with it more freedom. I assume keeping me from meditating facilitates control over me and further I assume that Thais in my environment are involved.
I notice I now listen to voices and I fear I may react to orders and be used in anything.
Thursday, October 08, 2015
I had stimulation of abusing sex but not that strong
every time asleep the last time. Allergies play a role
I am not sure how big this role is. At least last night
these could have played a bigger role in stimulation
of such. But I knew about the allergies and could
have protected me to some degree. I did not do that
That may have been due to MC or also feeling weak.
Tuesday, September 29, 2015
Wednesday, September 23, 2015
I have been in Pattaya for a week now and have had several
times stimulation of abusing sex.
I noted that especially electricity in Thailand may stimulate
abusing sex.
I am pissed off that I do not have any privacy. I sent an email\
encrypted and a day later I get on things I spoke about emails
from service provider related to such.
I have in my mind the word which is used to name the problem
I spoke about in the email I sent,but which I did not use. The same
word is used in the emails I got in which the two services react on
my problem. I had such before already.
I am hurt by the intrusiveness and rather block the initiatives
they offer.
It is sick to try to help in this way and rather shows a character
weakness. I question the competence of such services.
I would like to have better access to information, but in the process
I do not want to be left out as a human being, which is happening
with Mind control technology now. Such technology is apparently
widely spread and not spoken about much.
At least I know now that I cannot rely on privacy in encrypted emails
which means I have to think twice before I write about my problems
in such emails.
\
times stimulation of abusing sex.
I noted that especially electricity in Thailand may stimulate
abusing sex.
I am pissed off that I do not have any privacy. I sent an email\
encrypted and a day later I get on things I spoke about emails
from service provider related to such.
I have in my mind the word which is used to name the problem
I spoke about in the email I sent,but which I did not use. The same
word is used in the emails I got in which the two services react on
my problem. I had such before already.
I am hurt by the intrusiveness and rather block the initiatives
they offer.
It is sick to try to help in this way and rather shows a character
weakness. I question the competence of such services.
I would like to have better access to information, but in the process
I do not want to be left out as a human being, which is happening
with Mind control technology now. Such technology is apparently
widely spread and not spoken about much.
At least I know now that I cannot rely on privacy in encrypted emails
which means I have to think twice before I write about my problems
in such emails.
\
Wednesday, September 02, 2015
Monday, August 31, 2015
Sunday, August 30, 2015
Wednesday, August 26, 2015
Tuesday, August 25, 2015
The last two days I have heavy stimulation of abusing sex
and programming. It is that strong that it is wearing my out
If it goes on it can be a danger. I do not recover during the
day from such.
My eyes express the stress most. I cannot read on a computer
screen but it is also much more difficult to get or remain active
what happened presses me down.
Voices say I should do something about it. But I Have no proof
but at least I can complain.
and programming. It is that strong that it is wearing my out
If it goes on it can be a danger. I do not recover during the
day from such.
My eyes express the stress most. I cannot read on a computer
screen but it is also much more difficult to get or remain active
what happened presses me down.
Voices say I should do something about it. But I Have no proof
but at least I can complain.
Friday, August 14, 2015
I had again stimulation of abusing sex which was not that \
painful than the days before but then my mind starts to run
due to the programming in the night and it became very
stressful. In the evening I had pain in the chest on the left
side my left arm was tense while the right was not.
I eat more than I have appetite, I have little. Fatigue,
weakness is already longer time there. I sweat very easily.
Maybe signs of heart problems.
Some years when I still was strong I was able to build up
defense against radiation attacks so that I woke up without
noting any impact.
Then shortly just days later I started to give up on this
defense. I did not yet understand it at that time.
The attacks had switched from sexual harassment to
manipulation. I have to say I was not able to withstand
the manipulation which is possible by now. I just gave in
and did no more defend myself fiercely.
They have been able to switch off my English learning
within a day. They have reduced my meditation
to often zero and then further harassment and made me weak.
The manipulation has been switched of not long ago. The
harassment goes back to sexual harassment.
I am no more strong and have been passive for some time.
Voices say they want go on despite my possible heart
problems.
Well there is also arthritis, weak eyes, stomach problems.
weakness. depression.
I do not know how it will go on.
Without the manipulation I may stand that.
I did not understand for a long time that advancement
in technology will reintroduce brainwashing and slavery into
society in a hidden way like with such technology.
You doubt? In the USA the elite decides what
happens not the people. The elite will not be affected
by slavery and there is profit in such. So there it is to some
degree likely it comes back driven by western mainstream
hidden first for sure and maybe after some acceptance
programs openly With this technology I have to do with
it is already happening probably at many places in the world.
When societies will go bankrupt and or have to save
social systems will be dismantled. The options
for those living from it will become very few.
The rich will have then many possibilities go get
richer by recruiting mind controlled slaves with this
technologies I have to do with.
I am disabled with mental problems and have because
of this little support in society. I notice often people are
inside such stuff with me left outside.
In Germany I noticed police involved in such
harassment. They just openly gave me some hints.
In Asia I have one hint as well.
painful than the days before but then my mind starts to run
due to the programming in the night and it became very
stressful. In the evening I had pain in the chest on the left
side my left arm was tense while the right was not.
I eat more than I have appetite, I have little. Fatigue,
weakness is already longer time there. I sweat very easily.
Maybe signs of heart problems.
Some years when I still was strong I was able to build up
defense against radiation attacks so that I woke up without
noting any impact.
Then shortly just days later I started to give up on this
defense. I did not yet understand it at that time.
The attacks had switched from sexual harassment to
manipulation. I have to say I was not able to withstand
the manipulation which is possible by now. I just gave in
and did no more defend myself fiercely.
They have been able to switch off my English learning
within a day. They have reduced my meditation
to often zero and then further harassment and made me weak.
The manipulation has been switched of not long ago. The
harassment goes back to sexual harassment.
I am no more strong and have been passive for some time.
Voices say they want go on despite my possible heart
problems.
Well there is also arthritis, weak eyes, stomach problems.
weakness. depression.
I do not know how it will go on.
Without the manipulation I may stand that.
I did not understand for a long time that advancement
in technology will reintroduce brainwashing and slavery into
society in a hidden way like with such technology.
You doubt? In the USA the elite decides what
happens not the people. The elite will not be affected
by slavery and there is profit in such. So there it is to some
degree likely it comes back driven by western mainstream
hidden first for sure and maybe after some acceptance
programs openly With this technology I have to do with
it is already happening probably at many places in the world.
When societies will go bankrupt and or have to save
social systems will be dismantled. The options
for those living from it will become very few.
The rich will have then many possibilities go get
richer by recruiting mind controlled slaves with this
technologies I have to do with.
I am disabled with mental problems and have because
of this little support in society. I notice often people are
inside such stuff with me left outside.
In Germany I noticed police involved in such
harassment. They just openly gave me some hints.
In Asia I have one hint as well.
Thursday, August 13, 2015
I had again stimulation of abusing sex I note it is
sadistic sex which is programmed and stimulated
It brings me into a emotional mess. I was working
on this stuff was some steps away from such sex
and now get massive programming back into it.
I just was not far away from such yet.
This stimulation of abusing sex was announced
by voices.
I had tried several times to write some stuff down
for a police report but then attacks got stronger
until I was confused and end up doing other things
or slide in a depression. I have the whole last time
voices that I should do something that some people
are behind me. But inside I have a resistance
built up against such. Programming?
sadistic sex which is programmed and stimulated
It brings me into a emotional mess. I was working
on this stuff was some steps away from such sex
and now get massive programming back into it.
I just was not far away from such yet.
This stimulation of abusing sex was announced
by voices.
I had tried several times to write some stuff down
for a police report but then attacks got stronger
until I was confused and end up doing other things
or slide in a depression. I have the whole last time
voices that I should do something that some people
are behind me. But inside I have a resistance
built up against such. Programming?
Monday, August 10, 2015
I have had massive sexual harassment over radiation
in sleep. Voices say it will continue until I am destroyed
Voices say much only some of it is true. Announcements
of harassment were often true. So the last harassment
also was announced. I assume that I can\t stand such
strong harassment in the long run.
I had twice last week heavy harassment which brought
back forgetfulness and very low concentration.
I had to do with such as a young man
which led to loss of job, but it was not always there
sometimes I managed for some time.
Later with a lot of meditation this was better, I did in
Europe partly 3 hours a day, but the
last time with hard harassment it came back.
in sleep. Voices say it will continue until I am destroyed
Voices say much only some of it is true. Announcements
of harassment were often true. So the last harassment
also was announced. I assume that I can\t stand such
strong harassment in the long run.
I had twice last week heavy harassment which brought
back forgetfulness and very low concentration.
I had to do with such as a young man
which led to loss of job, but it was not always there
sometimes I managed for some time.
Later with a lot of meditation this was better, I did in
Europe partly 3 hours a day, but the
last time with hard harassment it came back.
Tuesday, August 04, 2015
I had very heavy stimulation of abusing sex
in the first night in Penang.
Forgetfulness being stressed out came with it.
I am not that accepted there and this is
usually enough for such. Too many human beings
never get above the level being a piece of shit
Not much about them.
Hey chit why not give me 50$ that I can enjoy
my laziness better? Don't like this? You can also
give me 100$.
in the first night in Penang.
Forgetfulness being stressed out came with it.
I am not that accepted there and this is
usually enough for such. Too many human beings
never get above the level being a piece of shit
Not much about them.
Hey chit why not give me 50$ that I can enjoy
my laziness better? Don't like this? You can also
give me 100$.
Monday, August 03, 2015
Saturday, August 01, 2015
Monday, July 27, 2015
I had very heavy sexual harassment this time asleep.
The evening before I found out that my neighbor
the man in room 312 has been doing strong
stimulation of sadistic sex for the last time
I countered psychic attacks maybe it was he
who gave me the stress this morning.
The consequences of this harassment are
that I can even stand stress less more people
touch my recent wounds so I am at best
alone.
The evening before I found out that my neighbor
the man in room 312 has been doing strong
stimulation of sadistic sex for the last time
I countered psychic attacks maybe it was he
who gave me the stress this morning.
The consequences of this harassment are
that I can even stand stress less more people
touch my recent wounds so I am at best
alone.
Saturday, July 25, 2015
Thursday, July 16, 2015
I had twice sexual harassment in the guesthouse
in Kuala Lumpur where I stay.
Once I noticed it was a person staying on the
same floor.
This sexual harassment is this time like before
connected to programming to a social democrat.
Such are social democrats, sexual abusing
people to bring them down, destroying
their health to make them join them by MC
technology. Social democrats
are so actually a dictatorial terrorist organisation
Conservative parties are no better.
That is why I don't think much the western
style democracy.
in Kuala Lumpur where I stay.
Once I noticed it was a person staying on the
same floor.
This sexual harassment is this time like before
connected to programming to a social democrat.
Such are social democrats, sexual abusing
people to bring them down, destroying
their health to make them join them by MC
technology. Social democrats
are so actually a dictatorial terrorist organisation
Conservative parties are no better.
That is why I don't think much the western
style democracy.
Saturday, July 11, 2015
Thursday, July 09, 2015
Tuesday, July 07, 2015
Monday, July 06, 2015
I had after the last post every time asleep stimulation
of abusing sex. Yesterday it was severe. I had longer
time pain and stress from it. I noticed very strong
programming of gay sex, which will take time to
remove. Arthritis came back is sometimes better
sometimes worse. With my eyes this is the same.
I do no more feel that strong sense of being
kept down of not at all liking to do much. But on
the other side I am not that much up and active.
I am not back on my track just too passive.
I can deprogram mental influence. I can better
notice my own affairs.
of abusing sex. Yesterday it was severe. I had longer
time pain and stress from it. I noticed very strong
programming of gay sex, which will take time to
remove. Arthritis came back is sometimes better
sometimes worse. With my eyes this is the same.
I do no more feel that strong sense of being
kept down of not at all liking to do much. But on
the other side I am not that much up and active.
I am not back on my track just too passive.
I can deprogram mental influence. I can better
notice my own affairs.
Friday, July 03, 2015
Today I feel better than usual. I could go down
the stairs without any unpleasant feelings or
pain, I was not feeling that much down that I did
not want to do much, but scared about what I have
experienced for years. I did not have much talk in
my head nor were there any mind games playing.
Often scenarios get played in my mind and I have
work to stop them. This includes trials to set my
opinions
the stairs without any unpleasant feelings or
pain, I was not feeling that much down that I did
not want to do much, but scared about what I have
experienced for years. I did not have much talk in
my head nor were there any mind games playing.
Often scenarios get played in my mind and I have
work to stop them. This includes trials to set my
opinions
Thursday, July 02, 2015
I have meanwhile some hints that the recent programming into
my sleep has been coming from room 8 beside me.
Two educated Muslims are staying there.
The programming has been done probably with just the mind.
I have to say that contrary to usual experiences I did not
feel worse rather better than before the programming.
But I think this has also to do with that I had some hours of good
sleep before I was woken up by this programming.
After the programming I could not go back to sleep for hours.
Manipulation I have still to deprogram.
I do not want to be treated in my back like this.
my sleep has been coming from room 8 beside me.
Two educated Muslims are staying there.
The programming has been done probably with just the mind.
I have to say that contrary to usual experiences I did not
feel worse rather better than before the programming.
But I think this has also to do with that I had some hours of good
sleep before I was woken up by this programming.
After the programming I could not go back to sleep for hours.
Manipulation I have still to deprogram.
I do not want to be treated in my back like this.
Wednesday, June 10, 2015
Friday, June 05, 2015
Friday, May 29, 2015
I have a Pons dictionary for android just recently installed on my tablet.
I just used for looking up words in an article. Afterwards I wanted to have another look on the words in the history. But it was not there. The history feature was not available. I checked several times, I did not find it.
I wrote an email to the developers. Afterwards I went back to the dictionary. The history feature was there then but as proof that it had not been there before only one word the most recent was listed in the history. I have in the ongoing instance of using the dictionary looked up more than 10 words. I did not close the dictionary for writing an email and I switched to and forth the dictionary app before many times.
I do not know.
I just used for looking up words in an article. Afterwards I wanted to have another look on the words in the history. But it was not there. The history feature was not available. I checked several times, I did not find it.
I wrote an email to the developers. Afterwards I went back to the dictionary. The history feature was there then but as proof that it had not been there before only one word the most recent was listed in the history. I have in the ongoing instance of using the dictionary looked up more than 10 words. I did not close the dictionary for writing an email and I switched to and forth the dictionary app before many times.
I do not know.
Tuesday, May 26, 2015
Friday, May 15, 2015
Sunday, May 03, 2015
I had all the last days stimulation of abusing sex
in sleep.
Sometimes this brings me in emotional trouble.
First I am stressed and more sensitive to psychic
attacks second I am more vulnerable to such
attacks because I just had such in sleep. Third
I fear more attacks and so sometimes situations
are for me more difficult and this isobviously for others
to notice.
in sleep.
Sometimes this brings me in emotional trouble.
First I am stressed and more sensitive to psychic
attacks second I am more vulnerable to such
attacks because I just had such in sleep. Third
I fear more attacks and so sometimes situations
are for me more difficult and this isobviously for others
to notice.
Thursday, April 30, 2015
Wednesday, April 29, 2015
I had a very stressful time in Malaysia up to now. Some
degree due to my allergies and my not proper dealing
with them. I also note a lot of programming to a gay and
further to like the social democrats. Affection gets
programmed I note there is not so much arguing.
while programming to a gay I have open voices say they
want to have such sex from me.
To democrats, social democrats and similar pestilences
they are a cadre style top down organisation, social but
not human. They want biotechnology, they are not\
really a friend of environmental friendly politics and mostly
don't deal with money properly.
Finally such democrat parties in the different countries work
in line with the mother party in the US for globalisation of their
at least partly miserable politics. If you don't want to be
controlled by the US you have to eliminate democrats in
your country is one step. But other parties may support
US positions over national interests like the CDU in Germany.
degree due to my allergies and my not proper dealing
with them. I also note a lot of programming to a gay and
further to like the social democrats. Affection gets
programmed I note there is not so much arguing.
while programming to a gay I have open voices say they
want to have such sex from me.
To democrats, social democrats and similar pestilences
they are a cadre style top down organisation, social but
not human. They want biotechnology, they are not\
really a friend of environmental friendly politics and mostly
don't deal with money properly.
Finally such democrat parties in the different countries work
in line with the mother party in the US for globalisation of their
at least partly miserable politics. If you don't want to be
controlled by the US you have to eliminate democrats in
your country is one step. But other parties may support
US positions over national interests like the CDU in Germany.
Wednesday, April 22, 2015
I had today severe stimulation of abusing sex.
It gave me a lot of pain and stress
There was heavy programming of such.
What was new is that voices and manipulation
tried to keep me from deprogramming such sex
they tried to justify it
Usually I managed to deprogram such new programming
largely in one day, This time I did not.
It gave me a lot of pain and stress
There was heavy programming of such.
What was new is that voices and manipulation
tried to keep me from deprogramming such sex
they tried to justify it
Usually I managed to deprogram such new programming
largely in one day, This time I did not.
Saturday, April 18, 2015
Monday, March 30, 2015
Monday, March 16, 2015
I had each night in Had Yai heavy sexual harassment.
this brings me in emotional trouble.
I am exhausted, depressed, withdraw from people
because of the recent stimulation of sexual abuse
which people tend to connect on after such
stimulation.
From such ongoing abuse I have slipped often in a
burn out with reduced brain processing capacity,
just slower thinking, less concentration less
brain capacity accessible.I am often discouraged
to address problems also because I feel exhausted
and down.
Intense meditation helped me out of such a burn out
back to reasonable brain performance but with the
abuse going on I fall back in an burn out
again and again
Tips are welcomed to help me ahead with this.
this brings me in emotional trouble.
I am exhausted, depressed, withdraw from people
because of the recent stimulation of sexual abuse
which people tend to connect on after such
stimulation.
From such ongoing abuse I have slipped often in a
burn out with reduced brain processing capacity,
just slower thinking, less concentration less
brain capacity accessible.I am often discouraged
to address problems also because I feel exhausted
and down.
Intense meditation helped me out of such a burn out
back to reasonable brain performance but with the
abuse going on I fall back in an burn out
again and again
Tips are welcomed to help me ahead with this.
I had an account on peacepink.ning.com
It is a forum for victims of mind control technology.
Today I got a message I would have been banned.
I have not been told any reason why this is so I am
sure there is no
Before I had lost my password and tried to recover it.
The service sent an recovery email to my
registered email address but it never arrived.
Also not in the spam folder. I tried this procedure many times
to get an email to recover my password.
But such an email never arrived.
I then just subscribed with another email address
Now I was just kicked out without informing me.
Miserable behavior.
http://peacepink.ning.com/main/index/banned
I expect them to just reopen the service for me!
I won't creep for that!
It is possible that this service is meanwhile controlled by
perps
(people who want to keep the mind control victims victims)
I had this already in another more or less American controlled
mind control groupI got just kicked out because of little things
from mainstream idiots.
It is a forum for victims of mind control technology.
Today I got a message I would have been banned.
I have not been told any reason why this is so I am
sure there is no
Before I had lost my password and tried to recover it.
The service sent an recovery email to my
registered email address but it never arrived.
Also not in the spam folder. I tried this procedure many times
to get an email to recover my password.
But such an email never arrived.
I then just subscribed with another email address
Now I was just kicked out without informing me.
Miserable behavior.
http://peacepink.ning.com/main/index/banned
I expect them to just reopen the service for me!
I won't creep for that!
It is possible that this service is meanwhile controlled by
perps
(people who want to keep the mind control victims victims)
I had this already in another more or less American controlled
mind control groupI got just kicked out because of little things
from mainstream idiots.
Sunday, March 08, 2015
I had strong stimulation of abusing sex which brought me in emotional difficulties during the day. I had such stimulation to a much lesser degree mostly the last time.
My allergies get stronger through this stimulation. I can't even sleep on a clean bed sheet without being troubled by them, which I could until recently.
My allergies get stronger through this stimulation. I can't even sleep on a clean bed sheet without being troubled by them, which I could until recently.
Wednesday, March 04, 2015
Monday, March 02, 2015
Einen Tag nach demletzten Eintrag hatte ich ueberhaupt keinen Terror
und lebte auf. Ich hatte wieder Lust am Lesen.
Das war am zweiten Tag zu Ende. Auch wenn spuerbare externe
Einfluesse nicht so stark waren hielten sie mich passiv und
interessenlos, wie das die folgenden Tage auch war wie auch die
ganze letzte Zeit. Die Stimulation von erniedrigendem Sex
findet wieder statt und wird moeglicherweise von Thais unterstuetzt.
Als ich in eimem computershop war bekam ich psychische
Attacken hinsichtlich missbraeuchlichem Sex von einem
Polizisten.
Sunday, February 22, 2015
Since I spoke about my allergies connected to the
stimulation of sadistic abuse such stimulation has
become little.
Still I had ongoing stress in sleep including
stimulation of unwanted sex.
In Thailand stimulation of other humiliating sex
also gay sex was strong the last days and horrible
the last time asleep.
I suffer the whole day from it. I feel rather weak.
This abuse worsens my eyesight.To improve
my eyesight and my. arthritis I should avoid stress
but I can't because of the ongoing abuse.
Voices say they want to destroy me now. But what
they say changes like the wind in many but not all
aspects.
I hope they change in this respect.
Allergies probably play a role in causing stress
related to it.
stimulation of sadistic abuse such stimulation has
become little.
Still I had ongoing stress in sleep including
stimulation of unwanted sex.
In Thailand stimulation of other humiliating sex
also gay sex was strong the last days and horrible
the last time asleep.
I suffer the whole day from it. I feel rather weak.
This abuse worsens my eyesight.To improve
my eyesight and my. arthritis I should avoid stress
but I can't because of the ongoing abuse.
Voices say they want to destroy me now. But what
they say changes like the wind in many but not all
aspects.
I hope they change in this respect.
Allergies probably play a role in causing stress
related to it.
Saturday, February 07, 2015
Monday, February 02, 2015
Wednesday, January 21, 2015
Tuesday, January 20, 2015
Friday, January 09, 2015
I notice programming to an social democrat
The programming could be old or new.
I have programming to no more see
organic farming and foods as important.
A few weeks ago my allergies peaked.
I had developed them because of
ongoing stimulation of sm sex.
The stimulation of such stopped.
But I have further ongoing
stimulation of gay sex.
When there is a lot of such
this can lead to burn out.
The programming could be old or new.
I have programming to no more see
organic farming and foods as important.
A few weeks ago my allergies peaked.
I had developed them because of
ongoing stimulation of sm sex.
The stimulation of such stopped.
But I have further ongoing
stimulation of gay sex.
When there is a lot of such
this can lead to burn out.
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