I often wanted to write reports about my experiences of MC, but I find myself repeatedly not thinking of it for months even if had planned to write down a lot. I also wanted to do something which may have helped with my MC but I notice that I just could not think of it for months.
I also have longer time had trouble doing meditation to the degree I need it to keep standing and not going down, this trouble is less but still there.
Yesterday I had again stimulation of abusing sex and I notice that I do not recovered from it.
I still have pain.

Yesterday, I had stimulation of abusing sex but it was not that heavy.
Today I had severe programming which brought me down the whole day
Malays are suspects. I do not support Malaysia becoming a first world country.
For that too many Malays are much too repulsive.. 

Die letzten Tage hatte ich jedesmal Stimulation von missbraeuchlichem Sex im Schlaf. Heute und vor wenigen
Tagen war dies sogar schwere Stimulation, die mich den ganzen Tag schwaecht.