Wednesday, December 23, 2015

I had again programming in my sleep in the early morning.
I could no more go to sleep.

Tuesday, December 22, 2015

I actually needed two days and some hours of meditation
to recover from the stimulation of abusing sex two days
I had last time asleep programming to like abusing sex
which brought me in trouble during the day.

Sunday, December 20, 2015

I had most of the last days stimulation of abusing sex
Yesterday it was that strong that I felt the effects the
whole day. Today I noticed programming to a social
democrat and programming of gay sex.
Voices seem to be encouraged to program and harass
as I show more signs of forgetfulness.

Monday, December 07, 2015

I hear voices,have sometimes sexual harassment.
over any radiation.
This sexual harassment may be coming from
psychic attacks.

Tuesday, December 01, 2015

I had quite some time the last weeks sexual harassment in
sleep. The last days it was less.
Today it was stronger again but along with it
a lot of programming.

Thursday, November 12, 2015

k place

The last days stimulation of stressful sex into sleep
took place.

Sunday, November 01, 2015

I woke up feeling miserable, depressed Allergies are
one thing, stimulation of abusing sex another to
contribute to this. Feeling miserable and down
continued the whole day.

The day before it was the first day I stayed in Surat
Thani I had no stimulation of abusing sex in the early 
morning, but I was woken up by people being loud
in the early morning.
I assume this was the replacement for the lacking
stimulation of abusing sex harassers could not 
organize in time the first night there.

Wednesday, October 28, 2015

I have a lot of voices the last time. I assume much it
is MC induced.
I hear I should defend myself against MC finally.
Such or related to such I hear again and again.
It is right I did not manage to do that. Several
times in the past I started writing about it with
a paper in mind to turn to authorities, but  every
time the level of harassment was turned up so I did
no more get ahead and stopped after a while.
But for some time they want me to do such.
I even had programming to sit down and write.
I am not sure if I can resist if they try this hard.
There is programming to a restricted mind 

in line with German social democrats.
This has been heavy and ongoing. It stopped
some minutes ago.
Actually I am not sure if it is programming
or stimulation of material which is already
stored in me. It is not that easy to discern,

Tuesday, October 27, 2015

The last days there was stimulation of abusing sex in sleep.
but I do not know yet how much is due to allergies.
This morning was programming. The main switch of
electricity was in the past and is now a source of stress
and programming, but it is not so always. It was so
this morning. After I shielded it no stress came from it.
Sometimes there is nothing coming from it.
I had voices for hours today which is very disturbing.

Sunday, October 25, 2015

Two days ago I started a post and saved it as a draft.
Yesterday for the first time for a long time I could 
meditate  a lot.
Today it is more difficult to meditate again.
I know doing such a lot would then give me strength bodily and mentally and with it more freedom. I assume keeping me from meditating facilitates control over me and further I assume that Thais in my environment are involved. 
I notice I now listen to voices and I fear I may react to orders and be used in anything.

Thursday, October 08, 2015

I had stimulation of abusing sex but not that strong
every time asleep the last time. Allergies play a role
I am not sure how big this role is. At least last night
these could have played a bigger role in stimulation
of such. But I knew about the allergies and could
have protected me to some degree. I did not do that
That may have been due to MC or also feeling weak.

Tuesday, September 29, 2015

I had this morning strong stimulation of sadistic sex
which brings about emotional trouble for me

Wednesday, September 23, 2015

I have been in Pattaya for a week now and have had several
 times stimulation of abusing sex.
I noted that especially electricity in Thailand may stimulate
abusing sex.
I am pissed off that I do not have any privacy. I sent an email\
encrypted and a day later I get on things I spoke about emails
from service provider related to such.
I have in my mind the word which is used to name the problem
I spoke about in the email I sent,but which I did not use. The same
word is used in the emails I got in which the two services react on
my problem. I had such before already.
I am hurt by the intrusiveness and rather block the initiatives
they offer.
It is sick to try to help in this way and rather shows a character
weakness. I question the competence of such services.
I would like to have better access to information, but in the process
I do not want to be left out as a human being, which is happening
with Mind control technology now. Such technology is apparently
widely spread and not spoken about much.
At least I know now that I cannot rely on privacy in encrypted emails
which means I have to think twice before I write about my problems
in such emails.


Wednesday, September 02, 2015

Yesterday I had very strong stimulation of abusing sex
reprogramming of abusing sex. I did up today not
recover from that.
Unfortunately some people apparently want to have that.

Monday, August 31, 2015

I had  less stimulation of abusing sex but still considerable
pain. It was just bearable. The eyesight is less effected
today. I ask is it possible to adjust harassment in such detail?
I asked me this question already some time ago not only once
after harassment was adjusted to some degree.

Sunday, August 30, 2015

I had the last days always stimulation of abusing sex.
Apart from making me depressed with strong pain
my eyesight is getting worse. This harassment will get
a problem for my independence if eyesight worsens.

Wednesday, August 26, 2015

I had again heavy stimulation of abusing sex. Voices say they
want to destroy me I would have such everywhere I go.
This harassment makes me passive.

Tuesday, August 25, 2015

The last two days I have heavy stimulation of abusing sex
and programming. It is that strong that it is wearing my out
If it goes on it can be a danger. I do not recover during the
day from such.
My eyes express the stress most. I cannot read on  a computer
screen  but it is also much more difficult to get or remain active
what happened presses me down.
Voices say I should do something about it. But I Have no proof
but at least I can complain.

Friday, August 14, 2015

I had again stimulation of abusing sex which was not that \
painful than the days before but then my mind starts to run
due to the programming in the night and it became very
stressful. In the evening I had pain in the chest on the left
side my left arm was tense while the right was not.
I eat more than I have appetite, I have little. Fatigue,
weakness is already longer time there. I sweat very easily.
 Maybe signs of heart problems.

Some years when I still was strong I was able to build up
defense against radiation attacks so that I woke up without
noting any impact.
Then shortly just days later I started to give up on this
defense. I did not yet  understand it at that time.
The attacks had switched from sexual harassment to
manipulation. I have to say I was not able to withstand
the manipulation which is possible by now. I just gave in
and did no more defend myself fiercely.
They have been able to switch off my English learning
within a day. They have reduced my meditation
to often zero and then further harassment and made me weak.
The manipulation has been switched of not long ago. The
harassment goes back to sexual harassment.
I am no more strong and have been passive for some time.
Voices say they want go on despite my possible heart
Well there is also arthritis, weak eyes, stomach problems.
weakness. depression.
I do not know how it will go on.
Without the manipulation I may stand that.

I did not understand for a long time that advancement
in technology will reintroduce brainwashing and slavery into
society in a hidden way like with such technology.
You doubt? In the USA the elite decides what
happens not the people. The elite will not be affected
by slavery and there is profit in such. So there it is to some
degree likely it comes back driven by western mainstream
hidden first for sure and maybe after some acceptance
programs openly With this technology I have to do with
it is already happening probably at many places in the world.

When societies will go bankrupt and or have to save
social systems will be dismantled. The options
for those living from it will become very few.
The rich will have then many possibilities go get
richer by recruiting mind controlled slaves with this
technologies I have to do with.

I am disabled with mental problems and have because
of this little support in society.  I notice often people are
 inside such stuff with me left outside.
In Germany I noticed police involved in such
harassment. They just openly gave me some hints.
In Asia I have one hint as well.

Thursday, August 13, 2015

I had again stimulation of abusing sex I note it is
sadistic sex which is programmed and stimulated
It brings me into a emotional mess. I was working
on this stuff was some steps away from such sex
and now get massive programming back into it.
I just was not far away from such yet.
This stimulation of abusing sex was announced
by voices.
I had tried several times to write some stuff down
for a police report but then attacks got stronger
until I was confused and end up doing other things
or slide in a depression. I have the whole last time
voices that I should do something that some people
are behind me. But inside I have a resistance
built up against such. Programming?

Monday, August 10, 2015

I have had massive sexual harassment over radiation
in sleep. Voices say it will continue until I am destroyed
Voices say much only some of it is true. Announcements
of harassment were often true. So the last harassment
also was announced. I assume that I can\t stand such
strong harassment in the long run.
I had twice last week heavy harassment which brought
back forgetfulness and very low concentration.
I had to do with such as a young man
which led to loss of job, but it was not always there
sometimes I managed for some time.
Later with a lot of meditation this was better, I did in
Europe partly 3 hours a day, but the
last time with hard harassment it came back.

Tuesday, August 04, 2015

I had very heavy stimulation of abusing sex
in the first night in Penang.
Forgetfulness being stressed out came with it.
I am not that accepted there and this is
usually enough for such. Too many human beings
never get above the level being a piece of shit
Not much about them.
Hey chit why not give me 50$ that I can enjoy
my laziness better? Don't like this? You can also
give me 100$.

Monday, August 03, 2015

I had like yesterday asleep stimulating of abusing sex
I could no more sleep afterwards so I lack sleep of
two nights.I notice that after such stress I can
hardly concentrate and mentally work.
This is probably intended.

Saturday, August 01, 2015

Yesterday evening I had voices that I now would be weak
and they finally could program me.
I had a lot of programming to a social democrat in the
night. Loks as if  the West is terrorist controlled.

Monday, July 27, 2015

I had very heavy sexual harassment this time asleep.
The evening before I found out that my neighbor
the man in room 312 has been doing strong
stimulation of sadistic sex for the last time
I countered psychic attacks maybe it was he
who gave me the stress this morning.
The consequences of this harassment are
that I  can even stand stress less more people
touch my recent wounds so I am at best

Saturday, July 25, 2015

I woke up and noticed having had very severe
harassment. I remained in bed for some time
because of this.
I have had stimulation of unwanted sex in sleep since my last posts some days ago. This stimulation stresses me a lot even to a burn out.

Thursday, July 16, 2015

I had twice sexual harassment in the guesthouse
in Kuala Lumpur where I stay.
Once I noticed it was a person staying on the
same floor.
This sexual harassment is this time like before
connected to programming to a social democrat.
Such are social democrats, sexual abusing
people to bring them down, destroying
their health to make them join them by MC
technology. Social democrats
are so actually a dictatorial terrorist organisation
Conservative parties are no better.
That is why I don't think much the western
style democracy.

Saturday, July 11, 2015

I had yesterday and today again stimulation of abusing sex
and with it a lot of stress during the day.

Thursday, July 09, 2015

I woke up with pain yesterday and with strong pain
today. I spent some additional hours in bed.
Voices said that it would get even stronger they
would end my existence with this.

Will they try to drive me to suicide?
But it are just voices. But announcements
were often often right.

Tuesday, July 07, 2015

Again heavier sexual harassment which is also
programming in sleep last time.
A lot of talk in my head.

Monday, July 06, 2015

I had after the last post every time asleep stimulation
of abusing sex. Yesterday it was severe. I had longer
time  pain and stress from it. I noticed very strong
programming of gay sex, which will take time to
remove. Arthritis came back is sometimes better
sometimes worse. With my eyes this is the same.
I do no more feel that strong sense of being
kept down of not at all liking to do much. But on
the other side I am not that much up and active.
I am not back on my track just too passive.
I can deprogram mental influence. I can better
notice my own affairs.

Friday, July 03, 2015

Today I feel better than usual. I could go down
the stairs without any unpleasant feelings or
pain, I was not feeling that much down that I did
not want to do much, but scared about what I have
experienced for years. I did not have much talk in
my head nor were there any mind games playing.
Often scenarios get played in my mind and I have
work to stop them. This includes trials to set my

Thursday, July 02, 2015

I have meanwhile some hints that the recent programming into
my sleep has been coming from room 8 beside me.
Two educated Muslims are staying there.
The programming has been done probably with just the mind.
I have to say  that contrary to usual experiences I did not
feel worse rather better than before the programming.
But I think this has also to do with that I had  some hours of good
sleep before I was woken up by this programming.
After the programming I could not go back to sleep for hours.
Manipulation I have still to deprogram.
I do not want to be treated in my back like this.

Wednesday, June 10, 2015

Ich hatte die letzten Tage wieder Stimulation von
missbraeuchlichem Sex.

Friday, June 05, 2015

Two days ago I had massive stimulation of abusiving sex and how I later noted
a lot of programming in sleep. The following day I was completely down
and did not do much. I did deprogramming today and feel to some
degree better. 

Friday, May 29, 2015

I have a Pons dictionary for android  just recently installed on my tablet.
I just used for looking up words in an article. Afterwards I wanted to have another look on the words in the history. But it was not there. The history feature was not available. I checked several times, I did not find it.
I wrote an email to the developers. Afterwards I went back to the dictionary. The   history feature was there then but as proof that it had not been there before only one word the most recent was listed in the history. I have in the ongoing instance of using the dictionary looked up more than 10 words. I did not close the dictionary for writing an email and I switched to and forth the dictionary app before many times.
I do not know.

Tuesday, May 26, 2015

I have had harassment during sleep last time. It made my day miserable.
Any radiation was it, it may have been done by humans around.   I ask with this people around to tell me if they notice something

Friday, May 15, 2015

The last days again stimulation of unwanted sex without my consent. Sometimes little but also twice strong.
When it is stronger it gives me considerable stress. I noticed twice in the gesthouse people doing it.

Sunday, May 03, 2015

I had all the last days stimulation of abusing sex
in sleep.
Sometimes this brings me in emotional trouble.
First I am stressed and more sensitive to psychic
attacks second I am more vulnerable to such
attacks because I just had such in sleep. Third
I fear more attacks and so sometimes situations
are for me more difficult and this isobviously for others
to notice.

Thursday, April 30, 2015

I had stimulation of abusing sex and programming of such
last time asleep.

Wednesday, April 29, 2015

I had a very stressful time in Malaysia up to now. Some
degree due to my allergies and my not proper dealing
with them. I also note a lot of programming to a gay and
further to like the social democrats. Affection gets
programmed I note there is not so much arguing.
while programming to a gay I have open voices say they
want to have such sex from me.

To democrats, social democrats and similar pestilences
they are a cadre style top down organisation, social but
not human. They want biotechnology, they are not\
really a friend of environmental friendly politics and mostly
don't deal with money properly.
Finally such democrat parties in the different countries work
in line with the mother party in the US for globalisation of their
at least partly miserable politics. If you don't want to be
controlled by the US you have to eliminate democrats in
your country is one step. But other parties may support
US positions over national interests like the CDU in Germany.

Wednesday, April 22, 2015

I had today severe stimulation of abusing sex.
It gave me a lot of pain and stress
There was heavy programming of such.
What was new is that voices and manipulation
tried to keep me from deprogramming such sex
they tried to justify it
Usually I managed to deprogram such new programming
largely in one day, This time I did not.

Saturday, April 18, 2015

I had the last days stimulation of abusing sex in sleep.
It were just people doing  staying at the place where I stay.

Monday, March 30, 2015

I had yesterday severe sexual harassment in sleep. Today I had
harassment again but not that strong.
The first harassment was announced by voices.

Monday, March 16, 2015

I had each night in Had Yai heavy sexual harassment.
this brings me in emotional trouble.
I am exhausted, depressed, withdraw from people
because of the recent stimulation of sexual abuse
which people tend to connect on after such
From such ongoing abuse  I have slipped often in a
burn out with reduced brain processing capacity,
just slower thinking, less concentration less
brain capacity accessible.I am often discouraged
to address problems also because I feel exhausted
and down.

Intense meditation helped me out of such a burn out
back to reasonable brain performance but with the
abuse going on I fall back in an burn out
again and again

Tips are welcomed to help me ahead with this.

I had an account on

It is a forum for victims of mind control technology.

Today I got a message I would have been banned.
I have not been told any reason why this is so I am
sure there is no

Before I had lost my password and tried to recover it.
The service sent an recovery email to my
registered email address but it never arrived.
Also not in the spam folder. I tried this procedure  many times
to get an email to recover my password.
But such an email never arrived.

I then just subscribed with another email address
Now I was just kicked out without informing me.
Miserable behavior.

I expect them to just reopen the service for me!
I won't creep for that!

It is possible that this service is meanwhile controlled by
 (people who want to keep the mind control victims victims)

I had this already in another  more or less American controlled
mind control groupI got  just kicked out because of little things
 from mainstream idiots.

Sunday, March 08, 2015

I had strong stimulation of abusing sex which brought me in  emotional difficulties during the day. I had such stimulation to a much lesser degree mostly the last time. 

My allergies get stronger through this stimulation. I can't even sleep on a clean bed sheet without being troubled by them, which I could until recently.

Wednesday, March 04, 2015

I had today heavy stimulation of abusing sex.
Voices say it will go on now.
I still feel rather stressed from it.
The environment after such tends to join
such stimulation.

Monday, March 02, 2015

Einen Tag nach demletzten Eintrag hatte ich ueberhaupt keinen Terror
und lebte auf. Ich hatte wieder Lust am Lesen.
Das war am zweiten Tag zu Ende. Auch wenn spuerbare externe
Einfluesse nicht so stark waren hielten sie mich passiv und
interessenlos, wie das die folgenden Tage auch war wie auch die
ganze letzte Zeit. Die Stimulation von erniedrigendem  Sex
findet wieder statt und wird moeglicherweise von Thais unterstuetzt.
Als ich in eimem computershop war bekam ich psychische
Attacken hinsichtlich missbraeuchlichem Sex von einem 

Sunday, February 22, 2015

Since I spoke about my allergies connected to the
stimulation of sadistic abuse such stimulation has
become little.
Still I had ongoing stress in sleep including
stimulation of unwanted sex.
In Thailand stimulation of other  humiliating sex
also gay sex was strong the last days and horrible
the last time asleep. 
I suffer the whole day from it. I feel  rather weak.
This abuse worsens my eyesight.To improve
my eyesight and my. arthritis I should avoid stress
but I can't because of the ongoing abuse.
Voices say they want to destroy me now. But what
they say changes like the wind in many but not all 
I hope they change in this respect.
Allergies probably play a role in causing stress
related to it.

Saturday, February 07, 2015

I had last time asleep massive programming of sm sex,
which brings me in trouble with myself.

A lot of programming and stress had  in the other
place I stayed first in Penang.
but at the place where I am now I have had  also
repeatedly stimulation of abusing sex..

Monday, February 02, 2015

I had most of the last time stimulation of abusing sex.
The last time asleep it was very strong.

Wednesday, January 21, 2015

I have had last time asleep stimulation of abusing sez
and massive programming of such.
Harassment itself was announced.
I am through the stress weaker have pain in the left chest.

Tuesday, January 20, 2015

i had today again sexual harassment which was not happening
much the last weeks.

Friday, January 09, 2015

I notice programming to an social democrat
The programming could be old or new.
I have programming to no more see
organic farming and foods as important.

A few weeks ago my allergies peaked.
I had developed them because of
ongoing stimulation of sm sex.
The stimulation of such stopped.
But I have further ongoing
stimulation of gay sex.
When there is a lot of such
this can lead to burn out.

Wednesday, January 07, 2015

The whole  last time, several weeks, I was
bad off and could not do much.
The last days it is better I can do again.
I am not sure about what is MC and
what is sickness.