Wednesday, May 21, 2014

The day before yesterday in Had Yai and yesterday
in Georgetown stimulation of gay sex.
In Had Yai first shortly after 4 am in Georgetown
after 3 am in the night.
Both nights it went on longer time or was repeated.


Sunday, May 18, 2014

I was again a little overly aggressive. I am irritable at the moment.

The last days I had several times stimulation and programming
of gay sex. This makes me weak during the day, it is painful
stressful. I am less active.

Tuesday, May 13, 2014

Last night I had strong stimulation and programming
of gay sex. I was hearing a car leaving but am not
completely sure as I just woke up; The man in room
one was awake. I could hear him.
I could no more go asleep this night because of this.

Friday, May 09, 2014

I haven't been doing anything the last days.
I just feel down. There has been
programming of lust to gay sex several
times. I notice influence of programming
to my mentality and try to deprogram it.
But they can quickly reprogram it.
The many talks I hear in my brain without
anybody near are information which my
brain stores and which influences me as well.

Wednesday, May 07, 2014

There was some programming  in sleep turning against my
independence and getting me to go to Germany apart from
some stimulation and programming of abusing sex.
It looks like there is a lot of control over my life now from
this western or Thai terrorists.

Sunday, May 04, 2014

| had again programming of abusing sex into sleep,
I have a lot of work to deprogram it.

Saturday, May 03, 2014

I had again programming of gay sex. It is programmed to
like men.
I seem to be at least a little sick and spent much of the day
in bed.

Friday, May 02, 2014

I had this time asleep very heavy programming of gay sex
yet I am not that much down than before.