Sunday, December 31, 2006

Today morning I perceived stress coming from one direction in my room. There was already shielding installed. I stepped it up considerably. The stress was much less because of the increased protection but after one minute the stress stopped completely. An attack whatsoever had been stopped.
The strength of shielding I need in some directions exceedes that what Mukazo Mukazo Vunda describes in his book 'coherent madness...' as sufficient to block radiation coming from free available and portable devices. But I am electrosensitive and MCS that means other means can contribute to the need of shielding. I had it already in the room several times, but sources outside can also be reason for the extended need.

Sunday, December 24, 2006

I had severe sexual harassment when I slept last. It was also announced before by voices.
Several times before I had experienced this amount of shielding I had put up as sufficient to block sexual harassment. It worked also there where I stay now for one day.
But now it was horrible.
The last weeks I am staying in Thailand I had much more and harder sexual harassment than in Malaysia before except in the Indian area in Penang. The voices say they want me to stay in Malaysia and may be the harassment has been put up to destroy the positive image I have from Thailand. Except in the meditation wat in Nong Khai and in Ban Khok Thailand has been a better place for me than Malaysia.
I understand now that human rights are not valid nowadays. When you cannot defend them you don't have them. There seem people to know about this harassment and keep quiet or support it.
The sequel of the post from 15.12.2006

Some years ago I met on the bus to Cambodia a man who said he would be a former FBI agent.
He also seemed to know me as he started our first conversation with such questions with why I would not be taking drugs or not trying to get rich. He could not know about me at that time on a legal basis.
We met sometimes when I came to Trat where he stayed.

In short some of the conversations I had with the former FBI agent.

I said that I think that the FBI confims the use of MC against people for instance to bring people on the right way.
He nodded.
My comment to this this is robbery of freedom. There is no right way.
On the question on how to escape MC he answered:

'That is nearly impossible as most governments around the world love to use MC weapons.'

MC and gangstalking from Thais is used in Thailand against me for a longer time now.
I should go to Germany. I have no proof who the responsibly people in Thailand for this are.
When I first mentioned in a internetgroup that Thailand uses MC I had helicopters crossing over me in a meditation temple in Nong Khai in 2005.
Helicopters only were once over the temple exactly one day after I sent this message.
In Thailand there are probably not many who are able to use helicopters.
I can't tell the exact day as I am thrown out of this group where I sent it to.
See last message.

Saturday, December 16, 2006

I am on some internetlists about MC. Yesterday I told the moderator of the mindcontrolforums at egroups that I would no more write to the list because I would not accept that he censors my messages. I experienced that messages I sent to the list did not appear at all or were changed.
He has put be under censorship because I wrote that Eleanor White would probably a perp.
His reaction was that he removed me. Facistic style in an group for victims.

The message below I sent to another group in which I am also put under censorship because I wrote that Eleanor would probably be a perp.

mindcontrolresearchforum at egroups

I told the mindcontrolforummoderator that I would not accept that he censors my messages (what he did) and would no more write to the list and only stay on it.
His reaction was that he removed me.
That is how it is in reality dealt with critic on the mcf.And that should be for victims? That is facistic style.
We need something better. Worse it could hardly be. I will see now how much this forum is worth and will publish it when you react in the same way. This message will appear on other places.

We will soon know what this group is in reality about.

Friday, December 15, 2006

That may explain what MC is paid from.

... and to which scale it might have been happening for years.

Pentagon Can't Find $2.3 Trillion!

This CBS news segment shows the Pentagon is unable to keep track of 25 percent of the money it spends, or about $2.3 trillion a year. No one knows what this money has been spent on; there are no records of it.
Despite this, defense spending has continually increased over the past few years, and few attempts have been made to ascertain where the "missing" money is, and accurate accounting alone could be used to reduce the military budget.
In all, $2.3 trillion comes to about $8,000 for every man, woman and child living in America. June 14, 2006

this article is from
newsletter 12.14.2006

my comment.

I think the high military budget o f the US is for dominating the world.
MC is to subdue its own people and free people all over the world under mainstream concepts. Certainly not enjoyable what is coming from America.
Yesterday I had voices that I would overcome what would be seen as decay with learning of special mental abilities. I had discovered that I could alleviate my forgetfulness I have since childhood by doing this.
The voices also said we have long tried to brush aside your problem of electrosensibility but it seems to be a speciality of you to put it as long in the foreground until the last one has to recognize it. I have spent hours with shielding and adapting my room to be able to sleep last night.

Today I had an Email from with offers of several books.
The first was about learning technique the second one about electrosmog.

Did this coincidence happen by accident or something else?

I may construct relationships in my mind but it is also possible or what I think it that my mind is read already very long. Many know about it enjoy it and keep quit about it and about the technology which enables this. I think this also because such incidences like the following I have quite often.

I had a talk to an American soldier in a cafe in Nong Khai some months ago in Thailand. After a while this soldier said to me: ' You should engage in politics about your views in morality.'
I had never spoken to this soldier about such views. Why did he say this. Was it knowledge from MC? In my mind I had at that time some talks about this.

Monday, December 11, 2006

This day I stepped up shielding again.
Voices said 'we now have to prevent that you have one night good sleep'. And so it was.
Two days I did not have sexual harassment during sleep but today again. But I know my shielding is not yet complete.

Sunday, December 10, 2006

The game I had already sometimes was repeated. I stepped up shielding had one night good sleep and the next time a lot of trouble again.
The attacks are heavier than before I went to Malaysia. But stress with Thais has been higher several times when I came from suppressive Malaysia. Thais seem to adapt down morality to the lower level of Malaysia. I had times also when there was no or little harassment in Thailand.

Friday, December 08, 2006

I have to admit that I hear voices and with longtime experiencing this I have learned some about this. Also that they have to do with my history and that Ioften think somebody is currently doing MC on me when it is actually a voice of my past. I have noticed this quite some times now.
It is not being delusional as the voices come out of my subconsciousness without relating to any context at that time and are dominant from time to time. This dominance appears for instance then then when some electrical applications are close to me. With some experience in hearing voices I understand more where they are from and belong to. From the beginning I refused what doctors think about this topic. After some time I found an organisation for dealing with voices where voicehearers but also specialists are involved. Their approach to voices is different to what mainstream medicine offers but I am sure it is more suitable to the topic. Western medicine has its hypothesis about this and treats according to this. But they do not really know. They just pretend to be specialists and want to treat you.

That I write this does not mean I am not a target of covert warfare. The incidents of this are numerous. But I may estimate the one or other occurrence wrong. But when I see the errors of science and the disasters politics often produce I take for me the right to assess things wrong repeatedly or even often and do not accept being labeled delusional and no more taken serious.
But I need support for this attitude from the people. It is a human way to deal with voices and much better than that what the mainstream offers.
Today afternoon I laid down on my bed and wanted rest for some minute before going ahead with my plans. But I got to sleep and was woken up some hours later by painful sexual arousal.
This going to sleep and waking up is produced by any external forces to get some control of my timetable. Though sometimes I certainly go to sleep because I am tired.

Another trial to make me a social democrat is giving me a lot of pain with massive stimulation of sexual abuse like two days ago and saying it will go on as long you don't adapt. This I had quite often also some years ago.
When pain is a severe and life is difficult voices will appear and advise me to become a social democrat.

An argumentation some days ago was
"you can be interested in natural medicine and be a social democrat."
To think about this is not an option for me at all.
But then there is a picture in which they present themselves as they have everything they are everything. The radiation is like this.
When you are not aware of how they are presenting themselves you may believe that they are this and not be able to define yourself otherwise and independently. You then and tend to follow their concepts.
The brown horror in Germany seems to have changed to red horror.
It is not the same as I would be dead in Nazigermany but the forror makes my life miserable and the brainwashing which is tried is nearly comparable to murdering a person, isn't it.

Tuesday, December 05, 2006

I changed the guesthouse in Bangkok but noticed that in the afternoon opposite my room again 3 or 4 people have checked in so this was the same as before.

I went to Nong Khai and was slept some hours in the afternoon and was agaion woken up by stimulation of abusing sex. I heard the guesthouse owner speaking.
The next day I again I was woken up by massive sexual stimulation of abusing sex,the guesthouse owner again I could hear speaking.
The voices say they don' t want me to go out of my abuse beause the mainstream has no offers in this area and they want to understand what I do and to be the first who do this.

If someone knows something please tell me this harassment is a big burden on my life.

Friday, December 01, 2006

How all began

I lived in summer 1995 on the first floor on the right when you look from the street in Arheiliger Strasse 23 in Darmstadt Germany.
I had already perceived that people where observing me for some time. Then in one night I woke up in the middle of the night had some pain in the chest and could no more go to sleep for some time. This repeated now very often and once I heared a voice "the system does not carry you". As far as I remember it belongs to the first messages I got to hear from anywhere.
I found out after some time that the man living below me was probably waking me up in the night with psychic attacks. It happened always at about the same time at about half past two.
that was the time he also was up. He had a job in the night.
There was also other hidden harasment I did not exactly idendify.
In one talk to a person of the Turkish family which was living beside me said about this 'we had this also but we are too many he could not achieve anything. For you it is difficult, you are alone.

After some months I left the flat and slept some nights in the forest to escape harassment.
I once woke up and my head was feeling strange . I scratched a little there were new scars. I did not think it over because I had not yet any knowledge about covert warfare.

The next time I slept in a car which I had bought and gave up the flat.
In the car I often experienced that I woke up in pain and some people around the car were just leaving.
I was unemployed and so ate in a restaurant where cheap meals were offered for poorer people.
In front of the reataurant there was always standing a car with two man inside. A junky who also ate there told me that this would be police in plain clothes.
Some time later I thought who might this be doing to me. The secret service?
Then I heard a voice. 'No, it is not the secret service. you are not important'
One or a few days later I passed the car with the policemen sitting inside. Sudenly one of the two man said.
'Mr Weinand, you are not important.'
I was baffled and went on. I got frightened and depressed about the fact that the police was inside this terror.
How to get out of this when police is inside.
But not only police. My encounters with people often showed signs that they may be anyhow connected to my harassment and surveillance and I did not know a proper response to the horror at that time. Some I have learned but I am not able to escape the horror up to now.
I had all nights again stimulation of abusing sex. The additional bad part of this is that then others also more often jump on this sore point and stimulate so that it is no more only organized harassment. So abusing sex gets reprogrammed and enhanced it is a lot of additional suffering and stress for me and it gets much more difficult to get away from it.

There are also voices why I would not follow the" social democrats (German SPD, political party)" why could this be a problem they would be doing a policy of the middle way.
I do not know where they come from. But technology may be available to transmit voices.
I haven't the article available but I read that It would be possible to transmit sound by beams so that only the people within the beam could hear them. (ultrasound)

I fear that such articles will be removed or have been removed from the Internet by governments and will be no more obtainable out of greed to go on abusing this technology.

That they are to my estimation using covert warfare to press me to work for the SPD unveils to me that they are an extremist terror organisation. They can do this because I cannot prove anything and not yet really protect myself against the attacks. It would be nice if this would get easier in future.
But equipment and tests to find out are costly so that the poor are delivered more or less to this torture. Such are social democrats that they use new technology and organized harassment to try to make ordinary and poor people dependant from them when I assess things right.

In Bangkok I slept during the day and had stimulation of sex with violence.
But the people aside me where staying the whole day inside their rooms and could easily recognize what is going on in my room.
The same I had the last time when I was staying in this guesthouse People in the room beside me remained the whole day inside and so where able to observe my room always and listen to voices from there.

Once or twice I noticed this week again people in front of my door when I woke up. They may have been involved. in psychic attacks.

It would be great when someone could give me hints which could help me ahead in this case.

Or is the the greed of the advantage and the fun with this torture for most people too big so that humanity and human rights will stay a farce?

Tuesday, November 28, 2006

I had again sexual stimulation in the morning. when I came to the lounge of Hotel Cathey in Had Yai where I stay most people there were doing psychic attacks towards me in Hotel Cathey in Had Yai.
In a bus teenagers did psychic attacks later, in a Internetcafe even teenagers got behind me and did psychic attacks towards abusing sex.

Too many Thais love sexual abuse. A rather disgusting feature of Thai culture and a significant difference to Malay culture. Thais have fun with sexual abuse.Malays rather like mistreating people to get them small this may include sexual abuse. So not everywhere is all the same. There are remarkable differences in cultures like this I just mentioned. You certainly cannot generalize this statements I would rather say it is about trends.

The heavy attacks I had are designed to destroy achievements I made to get distance from sexual abuse.

THE VOICES INSIST TO GET ME TO STAY AT ABUSING SEX AND NOT DEVELOPPING OUT OF IT. It estimate also that this is wanted so in Thailand.

To my estimation at least a certain number of Thais supports surveillance on me.
Thais, what to support my human rights and no more do this? Leave me alone and no more report where I go where I am what I do as this enables me to escape torture from time to time and feel more like an human being.
This would be helpful for me or are you that greedy with my abuse that you won't do that? We will see.

In America at least in some institutions people have decided no more to answer to FBI's questions about where certain people are.

Monday, November 27, 2006

The last two days I had sexual stimulation shortly several times . I slept during the morning I did not sleep in the night woke up at half past eleven had sexual arousal and decided to go to sleep again because I had had only 4 hours with waking up in between. In the afternoon I woke up and again was stressed out both days. I needed some hours to get ready to do something. Maybe something changes and there is more harming radiation around when it gets hot at this place I do not know.
Today I woke up several times. The last time I was in severe pain and had massive sexual arousal. I again found a Thai doing at that time psychic attacks. The hard ones were over at that time I am not sure if he did these.
I wrote the message before last in the morning and went to bed after. When I woke up I was stressed out. Massive sexual stimulation had taken place.I will need some time to deal with what happened like so often since I am under harassment.

The next night the floor of the guesthouse was empty. Has my blog been read?. However in the morning I heard steps on the floor walking around.I thought it might be a perp.Three hours later I was woken up by sexual arousal and pain in the chest. I heard also steps then walking away. Exactly this I have had many times also already in Germany where the terror started more than 11 years ago. After I had left my flat and slept in a car I woke often up with the same symptoms and saw one or several people just leaving. The symptoms I always have are produced by the attacker's mind. I can also some of such stuff. When I for instance see a girl sitting 10 m from me looking in another direction and then think of having sex with her this girl will recognize something and react.On this way you can unfortunately also transmit painful feelings. There are also books available who deal with this topic.This possibilities are used by harassment groups. I call this psychic attacks.
When I spoke to people from Europe or America about this topic they usually did not understand what I was talking about. Only very few admitted knowing and doing such things. That means it is mainstream standard to use psychic attacks as harassment methods and the same time the existance of such things is not even admitted, though there are also people who really do not know this way of communicatin. Acting like this belongs to the strength of the mainstream.
When I spoke to Thais it was often possible to stop them from doing such attacks. The knowledge about such things is more spread. And Thais are altogether (still?) more honest than westerners but unfortunately a certain number also enjoy being in my MC and doing or tolerating gangstalking towards me.

Sunday, November 26, 2006

The last days I wrote messages for my blog but once I had a hang had to restart and the message was lost. Once the computer restartet itself, the message was lost. Then I had a texteditor with autosave. It had to close and I could not recover the message.
Then I stored my message on the web a site for notetaking

The site with an additional name I have choosen is not accessible now as I wanted to furhter edit my message.

Some month before I was collecting messages for a blog or website on a voicerecorder which I always had with me carrying in a shoulderbag.
There were more than hundred voice recordingsrelated to MC on it already. When I last was in Vientianne I rent a bicycle put the bag in the front basket. It was stolen during my trip. A motorbike passed by and the man on the back just took it out my basket.

I think there may be the one or other thing have to do with my stalking and MC.
(International Mainstream Corruption Standards you have in many places in the world). Voices were also against blogging.

I edited a message with the beginning of the harassment in Germany and I mentioned also the man who I perceive as the first to do it. I heard a voice then I do not know from where it came "you destroy him with this."

Wednesday, November 22, 2006

I am some time in Thailand now . In Had Yai I had some attacks during sleep which I blame on foreigners but I am not sure if they were the source of this.
In Songkla I had several times sexual attacks in which probably a Dutch couple staying in the same guesthouse was involved.
In Surat Thani I had severe sexual attacks coming from room 5 in guesthouse SA two days ago.
Since I am able to block some of the stimulation of abusing sex there seems to be programming to like and to go towards men. That is what is there today and has not been there before. Okay, there may be other factors involved I am not aware of. But I had again some sexual stimulation and some influence by radiation during sleep.

This should not happen from far and Thais are probably doing or supporting this dirty business. There are hardly any foreigners around in this area. This organized harassment I had quite some times in Surat. Last year I was in Pattaya before I came to Surat and had there stimulating of abusing sex. I located the source of this exactly below my room. I went down and in a rage just tried to open the door. It was locked. I walked away but I must have ben recognized .The next days the same happened to me in Pattaya. People just tried to open my door.
When I came to Surat Thai some days later crap also tried to open my door in the hotel where I stayed. I never had this before. Organized gangstalking all over Thailand by Thais. The person who was staying below me in Pattaya was Thai. I had stimulation of abusing sex in Bangkok shortly before I went to Pattaya. I found out who. It was a Thai.

Welcome to Thailand. Yes, you are welcome. The Thais will probably have fun with you. Either with the money they get from you or for instance with such harassment I get.
Is it possible to program the brain from outside? I think so.
I have decided decided some years ago to life mainly on my adultI and to keep away from my father I. The last year I often had the thought you must work out your past first you have to go there. I now notice that the thoughts have influence on my daily life. I cannot remember to have actively thought that . The thoughts were simply there. Okay it may be an internal support of such thoughts anyway. But It could also be external programming to weaken my adult I and to strenghten my dependend child I to make this dominant and to push me in my child dependance which I have not worked out yet. That is what I assume is tried with MC among other things.

Sunday, November 19, 2006

One day after I had returned to Teluk BahangI went in the Internetcafe Spiderweb in Georgetown. This day not a woman was doing service there it was a young man probbly her son. I had very quickly psychic attacks and assumed them coming from the young man doing service and the other young man sitting beside him. After a while I stood up and was able after a short time to know where they probably came from. It was the young man who did service there the other young man had left by then. I started to talk with him about this topic but he refused to understand and just said I should have checked my head. i was angry about that and said that I don't have to go there and finished my surfing. After I had payed for Internetserice the man took a baseball club and threated me with this I quickly left the room and kept distance. He said I should be careful when I would be in Georgetown in the evening or I would be beaten up by them. He did not come towards me to attack me, he had to mind the Internetcafe.

I had already people going behind me after I speaking about psychic attacks. And I had people pooring oil over me from a motorbike running past me in the street..And I had people attacking me after I complaint there about something
A person from Penang said after I asked if foreigners are beaten up in Penang with "yes"

Welcome to Penang. Yes you are welcome. The residents will have fun with you on their way.

To deal with vulnerabilities like this is nazistyle. It leaves the vulnerablse no chance and they get in danger when they resist being hurt and discriminated. I also know that frequent attacks may damage me after some time.
I had also in Thailand a similar experience some years ago.

Wednesday, November 15, 2006

After I returned to Teluk Bahang from KL (Kuala Lumpur) something had changed. But it may also have to do with having being hurt in KL and now being more sensitive.
I had a lot of mind games then laid in bed the whole day. I spoke with an Englishman about this. Then I heard a voice. "The whole day in bed that is not acceptable."
The next day I was able to get up in the morning but there had been a lot of programming druing sleep. A few days I left Teluk Bahang after having had a lot of stress with mind games, which I did not have the days there before I went to KL.
In Georgetown then I had programming one night I should become a policeman.I still have some of the picture in my mind which is a smiling policeman beside me as a comrade. I never intended to become a policeman. So I think the picture di not come into consciousness from my history. Such programming is stressful often painful and burns at least some of the resources of a day. Additionally there is often confusion for some time and to remove such programming takes hours again.
Appearing crimes in modern times or was it possible in the past also?

Sunday, November 12, 2006

I was some time in Malaysia. And also in Kuala Lumpur for some days.
I slept in a dorm together with the 36 year old skinny australian traveller Frank Thompson. He pretended to be an artist and showed me his drawings. But I thought a pupil of secondary schol can do that.
The first days conversation vith him was okay.
The forth day I noticed when I went to my locker that the key of my additional lock was inside.
I opened both locks and looked inside the locker but nothing seemed to be removed. I put another padlock infront the loker which I had inside of it.
But I missed already the second key for it.
The next morning I was woken up by abusing sexual arousal and noticed that the key of this lock was lying beside me on the mattress.
Frank turned around in his bed and grinned.
I went down to check if anything was removed from my locker, but all seemed to be there. I went back to the dorm and now found the second key on the mattress. I did not carry this key with me before and in the evening.
I would have noticed it when it would have been on my bed. So I have to assume that Frank put him there also because he was the only one who could enter the dorm aside from the staff.
I asume that he but also others were involved in more. That I found the first key out of my pocket in the morning, that I was woken up by abusing sexual attacks.
They could only get the second key I found on my bed by opening the second lock at my locker. I had a key and the staff. So it may have been involved.
I was angry about what happened and unfriendly to Frank. I left the room and heared then "Randolf" I opened the door and said "yes". "Frank said 'It is only in your head".
Even when I misinterpreted some voice coming from elsewhere would anybody have said "it is just in your head" when this happens or wouldn't you rather say "No, I did not say anything" or "No I did not call you" than just" it is all in your head. " I have not told him much about myself so normally he only could have played such games when he is involved in illegal surveillance towards me.

Alltogether what happened to me seems to be created to instill a sense of beeing crazy in me.

This is called "gaslightening" according to Mukazo Mukazo Vundo in his latest book:

Coherent Madness: Effective Defense Against Covert Warfare

You can download the PDF version of this book for free on:

The more detailed paper version is out of print. Is it because the mainstream is able to make
pressure to avoid to get this more detailed information spread and does not want censore too open and so lets the PDF version untouched?

For me are such events which are probably due to organized gangs painful and stressful and because terror is quite often is is a big burden in my life.

Saturday, October 28, 2006

When I went into the Indian area in Georgetown the next days the atmosphere was bad, I quickly had to leave them.
When I wanted to go to a restaurant in the evening I experienced psychic attacks which made any stay in such restaurants really unpleasant.
I visited a Indian restaurant during the day. First when I came to Penang this time I was pleased about the friendly service but now I received sexual psychic attacks. Disgusting.
I had changed the guesthouse after the first strong attacks and did not have that much attacks for some days.
But then again I woke up stressed out after stimulation of abusing sex. When I went down to the reception of the guesthouse I found two people who I estimated to be involved in the attacks anyway planned or accidental I do not know.
There may have been some planning involved. I was in a restaurant the evening before. I reacted on a disgusting psychic attack. Shortly later a group of three men left the restaurant. I had observed them a little. I think it is possible that the attacks in the guesthouse had been planned then.

Tuesday, October 17, 2006

3 days befor I met an American in the guesthouse where I stayed. The following two times when I slept where horrible. There were two sources I located in the guesthouse and one outside where harming radiation came from. But I could not stop it. I still have to recover from some of its effects.
It may have been psychic attacks from people. But I discover painful programming which is intended to make me to a gay. That is what is tried for years.
Some days later I met a malay and had a talk. I had met him before and we spoke the first time much about health. Now again he started about Zyprexa. The problems with it were not big that there were new drugs with fewer side effects. I answered that the problems were not small when the company had to pay 650 million $ indemnification to users of Zyprexa. And so on.

Later during the day I sensed that there was programming to go to a pharmacie to buy drugs.
I had in Penang apart from 2 days in the beginning and the last two always stimulation of abusing sex. The programming to go to a pharmacie contained a type of lust which was also used for other purposes.
That is what I recognized. But this kind of stuff may easyly be misinterpreted. So I regard what I observed better as a preliminary view.

Wednesday, October 11, 2006

Yesterday morning there was strong stimulation of abusing sex, probably psychic attacks.
This morning was less stimulation of abusing sex but a lot of mindactivity going on in my dreams, I assume it was programming. I recognized it later as rather stressful, which is often the case when programming has happened to my experience.

Sunday, October 08, 2006

In Penang the radiatin was already high when I arrived. When I approached it by bus I started feeling the radiation.

The fluoreszent lamps cause more energy drain than in some other places. In Phnom Penh they were the worst up to now.
There are other factors related to electricity which affect me and consume energy and make me less strong to face other probleme or challenges in life.

A look into this will help also other people. In Europe about 3 % of the population is said to be sensitive to such things. Changes need not be costly as in other places in Asia the stress related to this was not that high.
Two days there was not much stress and sexual stimulation which I had again the last night.
Yesterday I talked to a German also staying in the same guesthouse I do. Afterwards I recognized he spoke in a way which suggests he has knowledge of my private life he normally cannot have. But most Germans I have met are in my mindcontrol and know about me.
That is why I think what is said about the first holocuast is particularly wrong. It is said that many Germans did not know. When I think over this second holocaust they are doing with mindcontrol technologies I do not believe this anymore. I know that newspapers in Germany know about the mindcontrol technologies used and keep quiet and silently enjoy the abuses somewhat shitting on their duties as "free press".
Even my family seems to be inside and enjoy it.
So I think the first holocaust was different. There was probably a bigger group who really did not know. But there was also a bigger group who knew. When people if the latter mentioned had been behaved as good nazis they were on Sundays allowed into the concentration camps to have some fun mistreating the Jews. Behaving as good nazis included to be a good liar and never speak about this issue.
Today it is the same. I have not yet met Germans who were to some help to get out of my mindcontrol surveillance and torture. You can rely on them to never speak about this and to do all what is needed and wanted to go on abusing his technology.

So many Germans are models in being good criminals and subhuman. Unfortunately in other countries I experience that there are people who support th same things like the German do. In Ban Khok Thais have somewhat proven to support radiation torture on me.
I hope in future there will be people who act different and helpful to me.

Thursday, October 05, 2006

Yesterday there were no attacks. but I had to deal with the ones before and had because of this a bad day. This morning again stimulation of abusing sex.
Penang belongs to the worst places to go anyway. The first time I got a immune system disorder was in Penang some years ago.
I get attracted bu some things, but should not go there for more than a few days to avoid the dangerous negativity of some of their idiots.

Tuesday, October 03, 2006

I stay in Penang now since 2 days. Today morning I woke up after having a lot of stress.
Last time when I was there the stress was not that big. There is stronger radiation around in the area where I stay. It is not that easy to find out where it is from. But I am electrosensitive, it may be to some degree related to this. But I have again to deprogram feelings and thoughts related to abusing sex

I have found some answers to this now.
I recognized some people doing harder psychic attacks towards me today and I recognized some who did some psychic attacks related to abusing sex. It happens much more covered than last time when I could openly recognize often people who did it. This is more difficult now.
They are friendly to your face and disgusting in your back because this psychic attacks can be very stressful and painful.
They are becoming more mainstream, they develop.
I won't say that in general as there are also many friendly people but too many are uglyminded.
For survivors of any abuse Penang is because of its abundance of despicable people highly not to recommend.

Sunday, October 01, 2006

The last four nights there was mainly stimulation of abusing sex. But there can also be Thais involved who unfortunately just like to stimulate this. The stress was not comparable to the level in Ban Khok.
On the other hand when I try to deprogram the nightly experience I get to programming which is also used to influence decisions of mine.
To my perception there are sophisticated ways to program a mind from a distance already for years available.

Monday, September 25, 2006

Today I had again stimulation of abusing sex and programming me to a social democrat during sleep in the morning. The last means that there is a picture of someone distorting words,
arguments 'like with the Greens you cannot change anything they are too weak come to us'.
The following is about the 18 september
Last night in the morning I had programming in my dreams. The dream was about to show me beeing an English teacher and doing bad. It was connected to abusing sexual stimulation. I felt sick the last two days and so I laid in bed long and did not my usual English lessons. These days I did not have attacks. Yesterday I started again learning and the following morning I had the attacks above mentioned. The attacks were early in the morning so I went to sleep again. But I was woken up some time later by pain, again external influence.

Sunday, September 24, 2006

Before I went to sleep I recognized radiation coming from one wall in the room in the guesthouse. I noticed it stopping the next day at about noon.
I did not have that much stress like in Ban Khok before during sleep. Yet I woke up with a diarrhea probably from bad food, I was exhausted already then and expierenced dizziness and considerable weakness when I went out. I was sick again.

Saturday, September 23, 2006

I slept in Ban Khok in the Wat (monastery) by the pond on a bench on 15 september this year.
I woke up early. It was short after three o' clock. I heard a motor bike stopping nearby and some minutes later leaving.
The nights before I had slept in a hut close to the pond and was woken up by a pain in the chest at about the same time. I also heard steps then twice outside the hut.
The arrival and leaving of the motorbike made it clearer that the person responsible for that was not one of the two monks staying there. Though when I slept on the bench the monk staying in the bigger building allso came out of his room at about a quarter past three.

At about five in the morning I still felt acceptable. that is the time many or most Thais get up.
I stayed at rest for 2 more hours and got up then feeling miserable. I located the source of radiation coming from Ban Khok.
The last night I slept in Nong Khai in a guesthouse. It was not that stressful but again there was stimulation of abusing sex. I still have not recovered form the heavy attacks in Ban Khok.

Friday, September 22, 2006

I stayed the last four days in Ban Khok, a village about 40 km frm Nong Khai, Thailand. The first night I went to sleep out of the village slept on a bench under a tarpaulin. I had no stress but some programming. The second night was the same. The third there was a lot of stress. I felt that there was stronger radiaton which had not been there before already when I arrived. The following day was heavy. The last night I went to another place out of the village and was woken at 1.40 a.m by a pain in the chest. I went to sleep again but then was massive programming together with sexual arousal of abusing sex. I recognized the direction where the radiation came from after I woke up. I have a sleeping bag made of shielding material. This I held in various directions. There was not much radiation except from one direction. From there it was that strong that the shielding material, two layers added up shielding capacity nearly 100 db, was only able to weaken the signal and by far not able to shield it completely.
The day was very heavy after that. I appeared to be sick.