Sunday, April 16, 2017

The last 3 days I had no stronger harassment. Yesterday I had
signs of recovering. But stimulation of abusing sex is still

Thursday, April 13, 2017

I had sexual harassment again. I had stronger pain today.
Programming kept me lartgely from doing what I want.
Though I explained what I do and why. This is anyway a
mistake to explain myself also in Thailand. No good.
Just get back on track and get past disturbers.

Wednesday, April 12, 2017

I had again stimulation of abusing sex. Voices announced so.
Before a talk about health. Psychiatry is no good I think or
better I know.
I described my alternative. Voices accepted.

Tuesday, April 11, 2017

I do not that easily speak about sex publicly.
At least sometimes. The stimulation of abusing
sex yesterday was gay stimulation. Today I had
stimulation of abusing sex again. It is also
programming of accepting abusing sex.
It affects my eyes heavily. I cannot read some
stuff anymore.

Monday, April 10, 2017

I had heavv stimulation of abusing sex into sleep.

Sunday, April 09, 2017

Ich wachte vorgestern mit staerkeren Schmerzen auf.
Im Nachbarzimmer war eine Person aktive.
Ich bemerkte auch Manipulation am Geist.
Aus dem was ich mitbekam koennte es sein das ein
tragbares Geraet fuer die Schikanen benutzt wurde.

Gestern hatte ich Stimulation von missbraeuchlichem
Sex. Ich denke das dies Menschen in der Naehe waren.

Friday, April 07, 2017

I had stimulation of abusing sex this morning. Such may
bring me in emotional trouble later during the day.

Thursday, April 06, 2017

I had sexual harassment twice this night. Forgetfulness
comes back. Forgetting essential things.
But there is also programming to make me fortot things.
I use a timer sometimes not to forget things but I now
repeatedly forgot the times.

Wednesday, April 05, 2017

This time asleep harassment was even worse than the day before.
Such harassment makes sick.

Monday, April 03, 2017

This night and in the morning I had sexual harassment.
I am already exhausted in the morning.
The people in the neighboring room have been doing it
twice but there was also another it.

Sunday, April 02, 2017

I had again heavy sexual harassment this morning into sleep.
Yesterday it was announced by voices that I would have
my power back now. At least today it is like this.
Despite the heavy sexual harassment I can go on doing.
My passivity which I had a long time now is not only
my issue, my weakness. I blamed myself put myself down
for being passive but this important external factor I did
not even know.
For years I wanted to put my flat into good order when I
was there. T tried many times to work on it but ended up
doing only a little. I could not do it. voices said they wanted
to put me in a home for disabled. They were against this
purpose and boycotted it.They were able to do this.
The second purpose was to prevent me
from moving to a nice place at the beach.
Influence is partly that strong that I cannot resist.
They mess with my memory intendedly.
I will write a story about this.

A few days I had a talk in my head about western medicine:
The fantastic western high performance western medicine
High performance western medicine? They cannot
even heal a sniff or a cough. At least one of them.
When you look up common diseases you find they can only
relief of symptoms. This is not a high performance medicine
this is rather a scam.
I sent an article to my brother which included treatment options
for cancer prooven helpful but not supported.
It was written that pharmaceutical industry was going for
money and preventing helpful treaments for getting known.
I thought industry alone does not have the power to put such
through. Proper politics a proper working FDA would prevent
such. But the FDA is corrupt for decades and politicians
supporting such. Suspicion fell on my head on Hillary Clinton
who supports GMOs, The weedkiller of monsanto is
I heard Ted Cruz, the candidate who placed second
in the fight to become presidential candidate of the
republicans talking positive about medicine which I see corrupt.
Donald Trump is pro natural medicine! This offers some hope.
I think he has the duty to clear up the mess at the FDA and then
include changes in a reform of health-insurance.

Saturday, April 01, 2017

I had the last time all times asleep sexual harassment.
Today I did not have it but ran into stress through my
allergies.. It started after I did not accept having no
privacy from Thais but this is not necessary the point
why it happened. Some beautiful girls I saw sometimes
looking at me. I related them to MC probably knowing
more about me than they should. Today a girl saw me
then demonstratively turned away. I did not know the girl.
I can[t stand having no privacy. It stops me talking
online about me. I do not like thinking because all is observed
stolen or commented, on messed with.
I feel depressed have no drive to do much.
It has to do that my personality is tried to be
realigned with different values and different
way of doing things.
I have memory problems concentration problems.
I should meditate more.