Thursday, May 24, 2018

Again heavy stimulation of abusing sex probably of any asshole close.
I won't be friendly  should I get this person.
Much of the day is gone when such happens. I can't get longer time
dental treatment because I do not have currently the nerves for this.
This is because of the ongoing sexual and other harassment.

Tuesday, May 22, 2018

I had now altogether twice heavy harassment in Thailand
Once sexual harassment the other one not sexual. The
non sexual harassment was announced by voices.
I notice my body cannot take this easily anymore
Arthritis returned but the many year long terror
has also  affected my psychologically. I have had that much
pain that I cannot stand more easily.
The last time I have voices which keep me from going to
sleep for hours. It has also to do with fears going to sleep
as much harassment happened during sleep for many years
now.
Going to bed easily so does not help to get enough sleep.

There has been huge influence of MC on my life,
With manipulation I was often kept from tasks I wanted to
do

Saturday, May 19, 2018

In Malaysia I had some days off harassment. In Thailand
I had to do with sexual hrassment everyday, though
my allergies play so some degree a role in such
stimulation.

Saturday, May 05, 2018

It is also the ever ongoing stimulation of abusing sex which leaves me
 in pain, stress and finally alone.  This is one aspect why I don't have
many contacts.
This I noticed repeatedly over years.

After this heavy stimulation of abusing sex a few days before
there were talks in my head and I called the stimulation of sadistic
sex sexual abuse.

It is against my will and knowledge when it happens in my sleep.
It fits in the definition of  sexual abuse. The difficulty with this
sadistic sex is I am also emotionally inside with positive feelings
involved. When I have severe stimulation of such sex positive
feelings related to it  get quite strong and may overwhelm my
conscious decision making.
That does not mean that I want such sex or the pain and stress will
not arrive.

Saturday, April 28, 2018

The last time I do not know for sure for how long I have
in the morning about 9 and ten o'clock or something
before or after I have strong stimulation of abusing
sex. It is that much that I now get considerably weaker
as I was before.
I tried not to sleep at that time but repeatedly fell
asleep after I used an alarm clock to be awake. I sleep
at that time because in the night I often don't get enough
sleep

Saturday, April 21, 2018

Heute hatte ich ein Gespraech ueber Globalisation
im Kopf. Ich oppuniere diese.Wenn der menschlische
Geist genormt und globalisiert wird geht die
Moeglichkeit verloren auf Probleme verschieden
zu reagieren und erfolgreich zu loesen, wie dies
jetzt beim Umweltschutz der Fall ist.
Dies war das Thema auf das Stimmen auch reagiert
haben.
Wirklich verschiedene Kulturen die moeglicherweise
noch nicht mal so ohne weiteres von manchen
anderen verstanden werden sind notwendig
um die ganze Dimension menschlicher
Moeglichkeiten auch des Geistes und der Psyche zu
entfalten.
Ich halte es fuer eine Katastrophe wenn ein
Inder zu mir wie ein westlicher Demokrat
redet mit deren Werten wie die Ablehnung
von Religion u.a.
Die Inder haben wahrscheinlich die Chance
eine wirklich unabhaengige Kultur zu
werden. Dann duerfen solche Organisationen
wie die nach Globalisation auch von bestimmten
menschlichen Werten strebenden Demokraten
dort keinen Einfluss haben.


Wednesday, April 11, 2018

Today I woke up and noticed that being a democrat
seemed to be in my head.I had contact to a voice
for long time. This was also emotional. Now I notice
inside me emotional belonging to the democrats, in
German "Sozialdemokraten" or more suitable
"The Red Pestilence".
That are results of Mind Control weapons.
I hope I get this stuff out of my mind again.

Sunday, April 08, 2018

I had voices which threat me in various ways today.
Voices make it difficult to concentrate on anything.

Sunday, April 01, 2018

New mind-reading machine can translate your thoughts and display them as text INSTANTLY

.https://www.prisonplanet.com/new-mind-reading-machine-can-translate-your-thoughts-and-display-them-as-text-instantly.html

I claim they can do such for a long time already and they can do such from quiete a distance
(remote viewing). Victims of mind control technology claim the same. There is also
technology to speak  to your mind and harass
people.


Thursday, March 29, 2018

I notice some programming inside is no more used or not used at
the moment. There is a lot of programming to change my
personality.
Like talking in a simplified way to me for a long time every day
over a long time. I adapted to that. I was no more able to use
my mind I used to do.It made me think simplified. I did not use
my mental capacity. when thinking using my mind.
Voices say  they want my mind back. This lot of talking is
information for the mind which I did not want but my mind uses.
It is influence. I have a lot of different talk in my mind with
different mentalities talking. I notice this influences how I feel.
This whole influence had made it clear to me. With the mind
control forces working on the long run you won't have your
own independent personality. I could no more use  my mind
for my goals the last time. So this forces are the enemy of people.
They shape the people in the way the forces behind it want it.
On the long run targets of such probably won't escape.that.
This is also what voices told me sometime ago.
The means to influence and control minds including the
technology is not regulated by law.So government tolerates
such happening or rather is doing itself.

Tuesday, March 27, 2018

The last time I often hear voices when I actually want to sleep.
This makes sleep when I get enough Irregular.
Yesterday evening there were voices that because I turn against
the West I could easily meet people on the street which go
against me and my property.
Later the evening I went out to go to a convenience store.
Two young men asked me for the way to a certain place
Suddenly there were five or more young men around me
and hardly anyone around because it was late.
But they were nice. They noticed my fear and just stopped
asking me and left me alone.
But I am pissed about these fucking governments worldwide
which do not regulate Mind control weapons and with this
enable and protect crimes with these. They just fucking
gangsters.

Saturday, March 17, 2018

More than 20 years ago I got to know youngsters one of whom
appeared to be close to anarchism. I lost contract after some
time. Some years later I met him. His personality had changed
to somewhat conform to social democrats in Germany.
He had been home less and probably been brainwashed.
The same structures I now have in my mind highly probably
programming.

Wednesday, February 28, 2018

Today I started writing  about my experienced trouble with my banks
and wanted to contact the BAFIN [Bankenaufsicht] in Germany.
The Banks seem to be in my Mindcontrol or just know what I am
doing online. So I have regained access to my DKB account.
The Sparda told me they will contact me.after I tried to call them.

Trouble with Banks in Germany?
Search for the Term: BAFIN

Tuesday, February 27, 2018

I had trouble to do Telefonbanking on my sparda bank account.
Now my DKB bank account is blocked. I typed in 3 different
tans and I controlled the input of the two last they were right
but my account is closed..I should call them by phone.
But the last phone calls I had with them were a disaster.
I was sometimes chaotic but they were nasty including I would
not go to the phone when they call. But my phone notices me
of any call coming in.and stores a record of this. They just lie.

Thursday, January 25, 2018

The voices in me seem to have
changedThey regard me as a human
being now. Yet they speak of me in the
third person they are external but
at least as they regard me as a human
now and no more that much just as a
guinea pig to my perception.