Friday, October 29, 2010

I stay some time in Surat Thani and had often stimulation of abusing sex and programming in my dreams. Sometimes it was hard. The terror makes me angry. But with no sure evidence where it is from how to act.

Monday, October 25, 2010

I recognize again and again that people stimulate bad emotional stuff.
I have to do with traumas which unfortunately can be stimulated easily.
Parts of them come up quite often so I have to deal myself with this.
Others notice this and think when I am inside the bad stuff myself
they also can stimulate.
I have managed to get some negative stuff considerably weakened over the years. Before I faced it often with the negative aspects.
That does not mean that anybody should join my emotional stuff when they feel ithem. It just increases my trouble considerably.
It takes long time to get distance to this if you manage it at all.
But at many places are people with negative abusive thinking who join such emotions when I have to do with them or stimulate them.
Chaiya is a place which belongs to the worst in this area.
Please leave me emotional alone. but to get this is difficult in a country which is tendentiel sadistic.

Saturday, October 23, 2010

I was in an internet cafe and recognized humiliating emotional contact. I asked the person to stop this contact. The man just laughed twice at this request and then got like me angry. Thais were not that primitive usually and mostly stopped this before.

I had much stimulation of abusing sex during sleep this time. Thais again. Thailand with some sadistic tendency.

Wednesday, October 13, 2010

Today I had again strong stimulation of a abusing sex during sleep in the morning.

Monday, October 11, 2010

I slept again some hours longer than it is said it is needed.
I had brainwashing to accept the globalisation.
Nearly no sexual harassment happened but this brainwashing makes me also exhausted. There are patterns just to accept globalisation in my brain and I have a lot of work to get this out. There are a lot of pattern programmed. If I don't throw them out they will become effective and the new way of thinking of me as it is desired by the programmers.
I am in an Thai environment with no foreigners close. That means this is probably again supported by Thais.

Sunday, October 10, 2010

The place where I stay in Phukt has become a bad one the second time I am staying there in a short time. A lot of stimulation of abusing sex wears my immune system out to a degree which is no more a small matter. This I had also in Chaiya and sometimes elsewhere. This is what I notice. I have noticed three Thais also staying on the same floor doing psychic attacks related to this.
I have difficulties to explain it but in my experience anyway mostly low quality characters do it and go on after I have spoken about it, fortunately these are only very few. Some stop after I have spoken about the psychic attacks and I have the impression they have not understood it.
When I compare Thailand and Germany about my personal experiences about stimulation of abusing sex the result is that I had in Germany much less stimulation of such. And this is just a matter of fact!
And this has also to do that in Thailand organized harrassment happened and happens?
The worst stimulation of abusing sex in the place where I stay now, which sent me a day emotionally off, was the night after my last criticism of the democrats in my blog.
Harassment in Germany was not that often related to stimulation of abusing sex other stuff was done and there were breaks.
That Germans liked abusing sex a lot less than the Thais in the past does not mean that I want have to do much with Germans. Many are everything but nice.
Well, there are countries which I experience worse stimulating harmful sex like Malaysia the first time in Penang about 10 years ago or also quite often later for instance.
Some of the last visits there were better but the last time in Penang it was miserable again.

Thursday, October 07, 2010

I had the strongest sexual harassment since long time. The whole day I was in emotional trouble and it is not yet over.

Wednesday, October 06, 2010

I had this time asleep strong stimulation and programming of abusing sex. I am in Phuket town a week now and had more or less strong stimulation most nights. When I stayed there three weeks ago I had no sexual harassment.