Thursday, March 31, 2016

I had all the last days stimulation of abusing sex during sleep.
I have the impression that the perps try to get me not to
write in my blog. 

Thursday, March 24, 2016

Some time ago I stopped reading the German "Spiegel and "Focus"
onlne news for lack of quality in journalism and also propaganda
against Russia.
I notice brainwashing. I read again this newspapers.
It is done by producing emotional change. There are now
positive feelings related to the papers. The judgement
does not play a role
A similar pattern is used to program me to a gay.
Now rejection is programmed against the online news from
I do up to now not yet really manage this programming.
Stimulation of sadistic sex is happening. Once I noticed
radiation related to such from a electricity counter outside
the room. But strangely it stopped after a short while.
I do not know how this works.
I think I just slip into this of imaging of this sex. But twice
I noticed influence from outside. But I know I am stil
l related to such sex also with positive feelings, which not
necessarily are  from me rather  from the person who did it
in the first place.All this makes the matter strange
and difficult.

The eveldoers in my case have managed to make me weak
and so more susceptible for programming.

Friday, March 18, 2016

After the last event I had two days no stimulation of abusing sex.
The second day I still had pain and fear but my mind had 
recovered. I could easily learn English. The next day stimulation
of abusing sex started again and with it my mental performance
went down to a considerable degree. Taking in of information 
only for a short while. I had it already worse when the abuse
was harder. Only little information if at all any entered my mind
processing was low if there was any. So mental work was not
useful  for some time. I am happy that I recover which has not
always been the case.

Sunday, March 13, 2016

Gestern nachmittag hatte ich ploetzlich
Stimulierung von missbraeuchlichem
Sex. Ich bemerkte nach einiger Zeit
die Richtung von wo es kam. Ich schaute
in die Richtung und sah einen Mann auf
ein Motorbike zugehen und wegfahren.
Von dem Ereignis mit dem was dazu gehoert
habe ich bis jetzt Schmerzen.
Ich habe Stimmen die sagen, das ich
sadistischen Sexakzeptieren soll und das
 der Stress zunehmen wuerde.

Friday, March 11, 2016

I had the last days sexual harassment into
sleep. Sometimes it was that strong that I
was more passive during the day. I also
cannot concentrate well then often.
Before I had some days off. No harassment.