Friday, March 18, 2016
After the last event I had two days no stimulation of abusing sex.
The second day I still had pain and fear but my mind had
recovered. I could easily learn English. The next day stimulation
of abusing sex started again and with it my mental performance
went down to a considerable degree. Taking in of information
only for a short while. I had it already worse when the abuse
was harder. Only little information if at all any entered my mind
processing was low if there was any. So mental work was not
useful for some time. I am happy that I recover which has not
always been the case.