Thursday, July 30, 2009

I was in Suan Mokh some days. Sometimes harrassment and sometimes not.
Now in Padang Bezar I had programming in my dreams in the early morning and sexual harassment later. This sexual harassment are probably psychic attacks from people there. Not necessarily planned harassment.

Tuesday, July 21, 2009

I stay in Suan Mok. I had the last time asleep again sexual harassment and programming in my dreams. A lot of voices are there which are probably not my own.

Friday, July 17, 2009

Yesterday I woke up after sleep and was already exhausted. I did not notice stimulation of abusing sex. But soon later I noticed massive programming. That strong I for sure did not have this often before. It was that strong that it is hard to resist. It is just a strong programming of enjoying abusing sex, that strong that it covers the negative sides of it. I was shocked about this it is also very traumatising. I did a lot of deprogramming and still have to do. The day before this I had strong programming of another sort of abusing sex and a lot of work with it.
With these repeated massive programming and traumatising they can break people. You just can't get behind to work it out and are finally overburdened.
This is sophisticated terrorism and it is said that the governments were the culprits.

Monday, July 13, 2009

The last time asleep massive stimulation and programming of abusing sex. Two days before I intended to meditate a lot. But I lied down for a nap in the afternoon and woke up later in the middle of the night and could no more sleep then. Voices say with meditation I could escape enslavement. But it is difficult for me to go to a monastery. I find again and again something in the way. I have to get it.

Wednesday, July 08, 2009

Again stimulation of abusing sex. I notice also programs which I refer to social democrats.
The wounds are kept open and widened. Some Thais feel my wounds and ridicule me.

Monday, July 06, 2009

This morning again severe stimulation of abusing sex. The whole thing goes on.

Thursday, July 02, 2009

The last days again Stimulation of abusing sex and programming. The stress brings my concentration and power down for some time. When the abuse is stronger and repeatedly I won't recover. Voices said repeatedly that they could not win without this abusing sex.