I had after the last post every time asleep stimulation
of abusing sex. Yesterday it was severe. I had longer
time  pain and stress from it. I noticed very strong
programming of gay sex, which will take time to
remove. Arthritis came back is sometimes better
sometimes worse. With my eyes this is the same.
I do no more feel that strong sense of being
kept down of not at all liking to do much. But on
the other side I am not that much up and active.
I am not back on my track just too passive.
I can deprogram mental influence. I can better
notice my own affairs.