Since I spoke about my allergies connected to the
stimulation of sadistic abuse such stimulation has
become little.
Still I had ongoing stress in sleep including
stimulation of unwanted sex.
In Thailand stimulation of other  humiliating sex
also gay sex was strong the last days and horrible
the last time asleep. 
I suffer the whole day from it. I feel  rather weak.
This abuse worsens my eyesight.To improve
my eyesight and my. arthritis I should avoid stress
but I can't because of the ongoing abuse.
Voices say they want to destroy me now. But what
they say changes like the wind in many but not all 
aspects.
I hope they change in this respect.
Allergies probably play a role in causing stress
related to it.

I had last time asleep massive programming of sm sex,
which brings me in trouble with myself.

A lot of programming and stress had  in the other
place I stayed first in Penang.
but at the place where I am now I have had  also
repeatedly stimulation of abusing sex..

I had most of the last time stimulation of abusing sex.
The last time asleep it was very strong.