After the last post the sexual harassment switched from such with violence to gay programming. Two times it was severe. It gives me trouble in daily life. it is a lot of pain and stress. I need a lot of time to deprogram it and it is hard to keep up with it. Many also step on my freshly open wounds so I have stress additionally as soon as I am with people.
There is massive additional programming. Again they want to make me to a social democrat. A special mentality is tried to be put in my head. The heavy terror I have helps to get this stuff in my head and also to stay there. When I was in Nong Khai in a meditation monastery I had this also very hard that they tried to get their social democratic bullchit in my head.
In Thailand I have this heavy terror repeatedly since about 2 1/2 years. Before I had longer times without terror or few in Thailand.

Last night there was massive stimulation of sex with violence. Voices try to press through that I accept it. I want to work it out. It is difficult when it gets stimulated again and again. Apart from this many Thais like sex with violence. Seems to be part of the Thai culture in quite some areas of Thailand. When I was at the hospital today again massive stimulation from many sites. I just had to leave for some time.

Three days ago I had again harassment I would call destructive. This was also announced by voices before.. The Thais have decided to destroy me I thought. The atmosphere from others around towards me was bad. I see no reason for this.
The other days I had every time sexual harassment, first stimulation of sex with violence during the day, then voices that this would stop it did but for this gay programming.

Back in Thailand there was a night off and then sexual harassment again. This time once more gay sex programming probably by Thai terrorists.

I often had voices which tried to make me stay in Malaysia. But I did not want
But there seems to be also programming to achieve this. Today I wanted to leave to Thailand but could not sleep much so I decided to stay longer. Sitting too tired in a bus would not be good as I had already sleep deficit from the night before. This trials I had also before when I stayed in Malaysia. This is only one of many manipulations in my life.

At the place where I meditated I had massive stimulating of sex with violence. I noticed that quite a number of people around Krabi seem to like this. When I think about it now I feel the stress the traumatising of this events. In Had Yai then again stimulation in the guesthouse Cathey where I stayed. I had been often there and no harassment, but the last two times massive terror. Voices had announced it before that they would destroy this place which was nice for me.
In Malaysia also now twice massive sexual harassment but not on sex with violence. The Thais seem to like this more.