I had again a bad night, one to which you say the following day is already over. Later I noticed massive progamming of positive feelings related to abusing sex. Voices also say already for a longer time, that without this abusive sex they can't win again me. Some time ago I had a ad in the inbox of my gmail email account which referred to the book: "My way to a sex sklave" I do not know how this ad should be related to me in another way than MC. The googlers certainly know.