Wednesday, April 28, 2010

I had very strong stimulation of abusing sex during sleep in Suan Mokh today.
Every sex I do not want to have stimulated is abusing sex.
Through the strong stimulation others also start to stimulate and I get a very bad day.

Wednesday, April 21, 2010

Today I had what I had many times. In the guesthouse somebody had checked in beside me I was woken up in the early morning by any radiation then something in the room beside me fell to the ground. Usually I feel stressed and in pain because the whole thing included harassment over radiation in any way. I did not feel that bad at that moment but harassment effects show sometimes later. IF I went to the police and accused the person of harassment and the person denied everything and there are no devices in the room obviously for this I would be there making claims without base.
Nevertheless is such harassment important to address but I do not yet know how.

I went to sleep again after some time and had some pain when I woke up. The source I do not know It may have been programming or my allergies to something around me.

Monday, April 19, 2010

Once heavy stimulation of abusing sex in Had Yai. I still suffer from it. In Surat also stimulation of bad sex.

Wednesday, April 14, 2010

This time asleep I had very strong of programming of abusing sex and some stimulation of such. The programming gives me a lot of trouble. It was the most severe programming for a long time. During the day also voices to press me to a social democrat. The voices said they could act also much stronger but that would be dangerous. Once in Penang I was not even able to move my hand in a certain direction and there were als voices about the topic.

Tuesday, April 13, 2010

If the organised harassment I had in Thailand should stop or I get support to get it stopped I would be trying to be helpful in the crisis and I think I may have to say something useful.

I had four sexual stimulations of sex with violence which I would call rapes because of their dimension the last time I was in Thailand.

If police investigations I possibly will ask for will go similar disappointing ways like in the link below I will think of ways to answer this.

Multiple Farang Deaths in Phuket

What I speak about has to do how I am treated.
I had some reprogramming not stimulation of abusing sex.

Monday, April 12, 2010

I stay some time already in Ipoh. I quite often like today spent nearly the whole day in bed. Today there was nearly no harassment, but I notice a lot of mental stuff of the social democrats. I am not sure if all it brainwashing from the recent past or old stuff which got into my head as a child.

Saturday, April 10, 2010

I felt miserable today spent a lot of time in bed today. Harassment was announced yesterday evening and it happened. But there are also my sensibilities again involved. I notice something which looks like brainwashing again.

Thursday, April 08, 2010

I had stimulation of abusing sex again. I was woken up with it. I tried to find out. To my perception it was probably a customer in the postal office beside the place where I stay, but I was not able to find out who.
A restaurant is in the same house where I stay. Later some stimulation came from there.

Wednesday, April 07, 2010

I had programming in my dreams today which made me weaker. I recognize that it should me hinder to do what I want. The last time there has been also been set some structures in my brain by any means over radiation. This happened against my will without my knowledge and brings about stress, pain and a lot of work of deprogramming.
Voices say I should not be that uncritical and try to throw out all I notice. I think it is right. Terrorist's stuff should not be in my head.

Tuesday, April 06, 2010

Today I had something I had already many times. I did not hear my alarm clock ring and woke up sometime later. I was woken up by weaker stimulation of sexual abuse.
I had a lot of programming in my dreams.
I do not know how to counter this. Okay, from "mainstreamics" you anyway won't get useful answers in many important areas that often.

Monday, April 05, 2010

This time asleep no stimulation of abusing sex but programming of such. You tend just more to do it and have to deprogram it.

Friday, April 02, 2010

Today I am feeling miserable and I do not know the source for sure. My sensibility is for certainly to some degree involved but else?

Some days ago chemicals may have been used for harassment. I noticed this in Malaysia first in Penang. A T-shirt put out to dry had some white pulver on it. It gave me that much stress even after I had washed it again that I threw it away.
Comparable stress I had with one shirt some days ago. I just had to throw it away quite far away outside the house in a rubbish bin. I would like to get to know more about this stuff, especially which chemicals are used. It is easy to do, if you don't see someone putting such chemicals on your clothes you can hardly proove it.

Voices try to make me accept abusing sex again and again.
The stimulation of abusing sex alone gets me into a depression after some time.
Voices also try to get me to Germany for some time now.
That I stay that long in Malaysia and that I at all went there was programming which I did not counter.