I had stimulation of abusing sex and programming of such
last time asleep.

I had a very stressful time in Malaysia up to now. Some
degree due to my allergies and my not proper dealing
with them. I also note a lot of programming to a gay and
further to like the social democrats. Affection gets
programmed I note there is not so much arguing.
while programming to a gay I have open voices say they
want to have such sex from me.

To democrats, social democrats and similar pestilences
they are a cadre style top down organisation, social but
not human. They want biotechnology, they are not\
really a friend of environmental friendly politics and mostly
don't deal with money properly.
Finally such democrat parties in the different countries work
in line with the mother party in the US for globalisation of their
at least partly miserable politics. If you don't want to be
controlled by the US you have to eliminate democrats in
your country is one step. But other parties may support
US positions over national interests like the CDU in Germany.

I had today severe stimulation of abusing sex.
It gave me a lot of pain and stress
There was heavy programming of such.
What was new is that voices and manipulation
tried to keep me from deprogramming such sex
they tried to justify it
Usually I managed to deprogram such new programming
largely in one day, This time I did not.

I had the last days stimulation of abusing sex in sleep.
It were just people doing  staying at the place where I stay.

I had yesterday severe sexual harassment in sleep. Today I had
harassment again but not that strong.
The first harassment was announced by voices.

I had each night in Had Yai heavy sexual harassment.
this brings me in emotional trouble.
I am exhausted, depressed, withdraw from people
because of the recent stimulation of sexual abuse
which people tend to connect on after such
stimulation.
From such ongoing abuse  I have slipped often in a
burn out with reduced brain processing capacity,
just slower thinking, less concentration less
brain capacity accessible.I am often discouraged
to address problems also because I feel exhausted
and down.

Intense meditation helped me out of such a burn out
back to reasonable brain performance but with the
abuse going on I fall back in an burn out
again and again

Tips are welcomed to help me ahead with this.

I had an account on peacepink.ning.com

It is a forum for victims of mind control technology.

Today I got a message I would have been banned.
I have not been told any reason why this is so I am
sure there is no

Before I had lost my password and tried to recover it.
The service sent an recovery email to my
registered email address but it never arrived.
Also not in the spam folder. I tried this procedure  many times
to get an email to recover my password.
But such an email never arrived.

I then just subscribed with another email address
Now I was just kicked out without informing me.
Miserable behavior.

http://peacepink.ning.com/main/index/banned

I expect them to just reopen the service for me!
I won't creep for that!

It is possible that this service is meanwhile controlled by
perps
 (people who want to keep the mind control victims victims)

I had this already in another  more or less American controlled
mind control groupI got  just kicked out because of little things
 from mainstream idiots.

I had strong stimulation of abusing sex which brought me in  emotional difficulties during the day. I had such stimulation to a much lesser degree mostly the last time. 

My allergies get stronger through this stimulation. I can't even sleep on a clean bed sheet without being troubled by them, which I could until recently.

I had today heavy stimulation of abusing sex.
Voices say it will go on now.
I still feel rather stressed from it.
The environment after such tends to join
such stimulation.

Einen Tag nach demletzten Eintrag hatte ich ueberhaupt keinen Terror

und lebte auf. Ich hatte wieder Lust am Lesen.

Das war am zweiten Tag zu Ende. Auch wenn spuerbare externe

Einfluesse nicht so stark waren hielten sie mich passiv und

interessenlos, wie das die folgenden Tage auch war wie auch die

ganze letzte Zeit. Die Stimulation von erniedrigendem  Sex

findet wieder statt und wird moeglicherweise von Thais unterstuetzt.

Als ich in eimem computershop war bekam ich psychische

Attacken hinsichtlich missbraeuchlichem Sex von einem 

Polizisten.

Since I spoke about my allergies connected to the
stimulation of sadistic abuse such stimulation has
become little.
Still I had ongoing stress in sleep including
stimulation of unwanted sex.
In Thailand stimulation of other  humiliating sex
also gay sex was strong the last days and horrible
the last time asleep. 
I suffer the whole day from it. I feel  rather weak.
This abuse worsens my eyesight.To improve
my eyesight and my. arthritis I should avoid stress
but I can't because of the ongoing abuse.
Voices say they want to destroy me now. But what
they say changes like the wind in many but not all 
aspects.
I hope they change in this respect.
Allergies probably play a role in causing stress
related to it.

I had last time asleep massive programming of sm sex,
which brings me in trouble with myself.

A lot of programming and stress had  in the other
place I stayed first in Penang.
but at the place where I am now I have had  also
repeatedly stimulation of abusing sex..

I had most of the last time stimulation of abusing sex.
The last time asleep it was very strong.

I have had last time asleep stimulation of abusing sez
and massive programming of such.
Harassment itself was announced.
I am through the stress weaker have pain in the left chest.

i had today again sexual harassment which was not happening
much the last weeks.

I notice programming to an social democrat
The programming could be old or new.
I have programming to no more see
organic farming and foods as important.

A few weeks ago my allergies peaked.
I had developed them because of
ongoing stimulation of sm sex.
The stimulation of such stopped.
But I have further ongoing
stimulation of gay sex.
When there is a lot of such
this can lead to burn out.

The whole  last time, several weeks, I was
bad off and could not do much.
The last days it is better I can do again.
I am not sure about what is MC and
what is sickness.

I had again sexual harassment in the morning into sleep.
There was also programming into my dreams.

I had the last days stimulation of abusing sex into sleep.
Once I had a day off. I felt well. This day I wrote
something negative about America in my blog just
as a draw.
The next day harassment went on.

I had again stimulation of abusing sex which brings me down
during the day.