I had again programming in my sleep in the early morning.
I could no more go to sleep.

I actually needed two days and some hours of meditation
to recover from the stimulation of abusing sex two days
ago
I had last time asleep programming to like abusing sex
which brought me in trouble during the day.

I had most of the last days stimulation of abusing sex
Yesterday it was that strong that I felt the effects the
whole day. Today I noticed programming to a social
democrat and programming of gay sex.
Voices seem to be encouraged to program and harass
as I show more signs of forgetfulness.

I hear voices,have sometimes sexual harassment.
over any radiation.
This sexual harassment may be coming from
psychic attacks.

I had quite some time the last weeks sexual harassment in
sleep. The last days it was less.
Today it was stronger again but along with it
a lot of programming.

k place

The last days stimulation of stressful sex into sleep
took place.

I woke up feeling miserable, depressed Allergies are
one thing, stimulation of abusing sex another to
contribute to this. Feeling miserable and down
continued the whole day.

The day before it was the first day I stayed in Surat

Thani I had no stimulation of abusing sex in the early 

morning, but I was woken up by people being loud

in the early morning.

I assume this was the replacement for the lacking

stimulation of abusing sex harassers could not 

organize in time the first night there.

I have a lot of voices the last time. I assume much it
is MC induced.
I hear I should defend myself against MC finally.
Such or related to such I hear again and again.
It is right I did not manage to do that. Several
times in the past I started writing about it with
a paper in mind to turn to authorities, but  every
time the level of harassment was turned up so I did
no more get ahead and stopped after a while.
But for some time they want me to do such.
I even had programming to sit down and write.
I am not sure if I can resist if they try this hard.
There is programming to a restricted mind 
in line with German social democrats.
This has been heavy and ongoing. It stopped
some minutes ago.
Actually I am not sure if it is programming
or stimulation of material which is already
stored in me. It is not that easy to discern,

The last days there was stimulation of abusing sex in sleep.
but I do not know yet how much is due to allergies.
This morning was programming. The main switch of
electricity was in the past and is now a source of stress
and programming, but it is not so always. It was so
this morning. After I shielded it no stress came from it.
Sometimes there is nothing coming from it.
I had voices for hours today which is very disturbing.

Two days ago I started a post and saved it as a draft.
Yesterday for the first time for a long time I could 
meditate  a lot.
Today it is more difficult to meditate again.
I know doing such a lot would then give me strength bodily and mentally and with it more freedom. I assume keeping me from meditating facilitates control over me and further I assume that Thais in my environment are involved. 
I notice I now listen to voices and I fear I may react to orders and be used in anything.

I had stimulation of abusing sex but not that strong

every time asleep the last time. Allergies play a role

I am not sure how big this role is. At least last night

these could have played a bigger role in stimulation

of such. But I knew about the allergies and could

have protected me to some degree. I did not do that

That may have been due to MC or also feeling weak.

I had this morning strong stimulation of sadistic sex
which brings about emotional trouble for me

I have been in Pattaya for a week now and have had several
 times stimulation of abusing sex.
I noted that especially electricity in Thailand may stimulate
abusing sex.
I am pissed off that I do not have any privacy. I sent an email\
encrypted and a day later I get on things I spoke about emails
from service provider related to such.
I have in my mind the word which is used to name the problem
I spoke about in the email I sent,but which I did not use. The same
word is used in the emails I got in which the two services react on
my problem. I had such before already.
I am hurt by the intrusiveness and rather block the initiatives
they offer.
It is sick to try to help in this way and rather shows a character
weakness. I question the competence of such services.
I would like to have better access to information, but in the process
I do not want to be left out as a human being, which is happening
with Mind control technology now. Such technology is apparently
widely spread and not spoken about much.
At least I know now that I cannot rely on privacy in encrypted emails
which means I have to think twice before I write about my problems
in such emails.





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Yesterday I had very strong stimulation of abusing sex
reprogramming of abusing sex. I did up today not
recover from that.
Unfortunately some people apparently want to have that.

I had  less stimulation of abusing sex but still considerable
pain. It was just bearable. The eyesight is less effected
today. I ask is it possible to adjust harassment in such detail?
I asked me this question already some time ago not only once
after harassment was adjusted to some degree.

I had the last days always stimulation of abusing sex.
Apart from making me depressed with strong pain
my eyesight is getting worse. This harassment will get
a problem for my independence if eyesight worsens.

I had again heavy stimulation of abusing sex. Voices say they
want to destroy me I would have such everywhere I go.
This harassment makes me passive.

The last two days I have heavy stimulation of abusing sex
and programming. It is that strong that it is wearing my out
If it goes on it can be a danger. I do not recover during the
day from such.
My eyes express the stress most. I cannot read on  a computer
screen  but it is also much more difficult to get or remain active
what happened presses me down.
Voices say I should do something about it. But I Have no proof
but at least I can complain.

I had again stimulation of abusing sex which was not that \
painful than the days before but then my mind starts to run
due to the programming in the night and it became very
stressful. In the evening I had pain in the chest on the left
side my left arm was tense while the right was not.
I eat more than I have appetite, I have little. Fatigue,
weakness is already longer time there. I sweat very easily.
 Maybe signs of heart problems.

Some years when I still was strong I was able to build up
defense against radiation attacks so that I woke up without
noting any impact.
Then shortly just days later I started to give up on this
defense. I did not yet  understand it at that time.
The attacks had switched from sexual harassment to
manipulation. I have to say I was not able to withstand
the manipulation which is possible by now. I just gave in
and did no more defend myself fiercely.
They have been able to switch off my English learning
within a day. They have reduced my meditation
to often zero and then further harassment and made me weak.
The manipulation has been switched of not long ago. The
harassment goes back to sexual harassment.
I am no more strong and have been passive for some time.
Voices say they want go on despite my possible heart
problems.
Well there is also arthritis, weak eyes, stomach problems.
weakness. depression.
I do not know how it will go on.
Without the manipulation I may stand that.

I did not understand for a long time that advancement
in technology will reintroduce brainwashing and slavery into
society in a hidden way like with such technology.
You doubt? In the USA the elite decides what
happens not the people. The elite will not be affected
by slavery and there is profit in such. So there it is to some
degree likely it comes back driven by western mainstream
hidden first for sure and maybe after some acceptance
programs openly With this technology I have to do with
it is already happening probably at many places in the world.

When societies will go bankrupt and or have to save
social systems will be dismantled. The options
for those living from it will become very few.
The rich will have then many possibilities go get
richer by recruiting mind controlled slaves with this
technologies I have to do with.

I am disabled with mental problems and have because
of this little support in society.  I notice often people are
 inside such stuff with me left outside.
In Germany I noticed police involved in such
harassment. They just openly gave me some hints.
In Asia I have one hint as well.

I had again stimulation of abusing sex I note it is
sadistic sex which is programmed and stimulated
It brings me into a emotional mess. I was working
on this stuff was some steps away from such sex
and now get massive programming back into it.
I just was not far away from such yet.
This stimulation of abusing sex was announced
by voices.
I had tried several times to write some stuff down
for a police report but then attacks got stronger
until I was confused and end up doing other things
or slide in a depression. I have the whole last time
voices that I should do something that some people
are behind me. But inside I have a resistance
built up against such. Programming?